Monday October 31, 2005
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Sup Guys, honestly its all about the friendship.. So wake up to my mother knocking on my door. So l told my family earlier, look l got shit to do today, visit me another day. They visit anyway.. So yea lm dead tired and they're messing around my room as lm trying to go back to sleep. One request.. 'PLEASE DON'T MESS WITH MY SHIT' of course my mother decides to take my laundry and l realize the shirt l need to wear for the Ku Dance Team photoshoot is in there for some reason so l had to call back and flip shit. THIS IS THE SHIT FOR WHY I HATE MY MOTHER.. Shes just fucking IGNORANT and IGNORANCE.. wow where could l fucking start, l just hate ignorant, naive people. I really do. lm friends and nice to everyone but l hate ALOT more of people than anyone realizes, thats all. So yea, get my shit back and get lunch with Jennie. Me and Jennie had a talk about something and hmm things are ockward but hopefully it'll get better. Get ready for the Ku Dance Team Photoshoot. So yea get to Jill's at 530 and wait forever to get my picture. Chill and catch up with all the other 26 girls and see what they've been up too last 3 days with parties and junk. It was really nice and just joked around, watched dances from various music awards talking bout what we liked and for real, its really nice being with them. Later we hit Old Main for the group photo and lm dead center, well pretty much in the picture. I cant wait till they come out, l wanna see them bad. Its all for the website and l think the poster if we're having them this yr. I dunno, just showing people lm part of the team is all that matters. No practice cause just l dunno, the day we just long as it was. Go back and do some work and AXP Bros were saying party at 118 and so l get the next door neighbors of 314 to come with me. So me and 5 of the girls next door chill and drink a bit at 118 but then hear of another party and hit that and alot of people tonight were asking me if l was in AXP. Its just weird people knowing me who l dont know for whatever reason, like lm jw how do they know lm part of AXP or whatever but turned out to be some cool people. Drink and played ALOT of beer pong. Me and Heather lost and then me and Melissa later on won 3 games. Melissa hates beer tho and had liquor of her own so l had to drink ALL the beer pong cups our opponents made. Ontop of that, they were filled more than half way for most games so yea.. Im still dizzy and its been bout 40 mins. We then hit 118 again after 138 and chill and drink then hit Turkey Hill for some food. I got some 'The Bomb's OMFG they are so good as lm eating one right now. Paul picks us all up and that was awesome of him and now lm back. Thank you Paul. Yo for real, l just love my friends here. Everyday is just full of running around and doing shit and yo lm for real getting my work done so its all good. Just with friends, l seriously have the best friends anyone could find. Like we fit well together and when l introduce my friends to other friends, they fit well too. I love it. Fuck EVERYTHING but my friends. Even for a bit, fuck dancing. Dancing is a BIG part of my life but l mean, it wouldnt be any fun if l didnt have friends to practice with back home and here with the Ku Breakers and Ku Dance Team. 'l cant tell if your the same person l know But there could never be a replacement for you Dont ever wither You lone flower l cant tell if your the same person l know But up till now and from now on Even if l made enemies With everyone other than you Even if that day came I'll always protect you so dont lose You lone flower' Late.
Posted 10/31/2005 at 2:21 AM
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Sunday October 30, 2005
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Sup Guys, honestly l got things really set more than l realized. Wake up at 330pm haaha oh man that was bad. Work on some school work for bout 2 hrs and do the usual sat thing. Chill, talk online and play video games with some school work. Get dinner with Matt and the 314 girls and 115 guys. Chill and play more video games. I get so lost in video games that l lose track of time. So then all theses IMs are coming in on my 2nd screen and lm thinking l'll just check them later. EVERYONE was leaving to the party without me and trying to get a hold of me but l had to be a CS freak and choose video games over important IMs. So at like 940 l realize everyone was leaving cept for me. Lucky me, Natalie was at a bad party and texted me and l called her to meet up and we meet at Sal's. Hit Marc's Costume party, beer jungle juice and jello shots. Sweet.. Alot of the BBoys in the Ku Breakers were there of course and its nice to party with them. Me and Natalie got some jungle juice and beer and she somehow got us jello shots for free. Good having female friends, always hahaha. Later we had to go for a bit cause cops were potentially coming so me and Natalie go to random houses. We walked in place and saw AST girls so lm like YOOOOOOOo00!!!!! We kinda just sat down and the dude was like 'who do you know here' and lm like 'all the AST GIRLS!! Katie and ummmmm.....' and then we just sat down and got kicked out hahahaha. How ridiculous. So we head back to Marc's and then party again and take swigs of Bacardi Rum and all this junk. Just a good night with alot of the bboys and my new buddy Natalie who l been partying with lately. Afterwards hit back and got my sweater back from her from the night b4 and hit back to my room. Gon get a shower, wash up and watch Battle Royal 2, this crazy japaness movie bout a bunch of kids forced to kill each other with the random tools they have. Its pretty crazy how things can work out. Its like planning 5 steps ahead in Chess and it actually works out. Pretty crazy. Whats funny is lm looking forward to bboy practice the most. Late.
Posted 10/30/2005 at 12:38 AM
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Saturday October 29, 2005
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Sup Guys, OMG l have the best fucking time at parties.. My cheeks hurt a lil from smirking and smiling alllllll night. So wake and hit my classes, nothing special, just some sleeping and some notes. l'll just say this, lm lucky and things work out for me as if it were magic. So yea hit my room and play Counter-Strike Source like a beast. Damnnnnn do l love video games. lm gon have to start school work when l wake up tomm tho. Later on EVERYONE is IMing me bout parties. Oh man l was just trying to play some video games god damn but l ask around and later on l find 69 baldy and 30 main. So yea everyone who was looking l told and got some to walk with too. So to the party me Matt and Mike go as the backwards man from Tom Green's Freddy got fingered but everyone kept asking me all throughout the night if l was criss cross hahaa oh man. The posse to walk up to 69 was Me Heather Mike Matt Ben Natalie and Carly. Hit 69 and yo fun as shit. Just everyone that parties, well, everyone knows how it is. Its the same people that party all the time and everyone tends to know everyone within time. Rich Zach Jon Jen Leigh Julie and 246324 other people are at 69 and just had fun running around talking and catching up with people. Drink a few cups and joke around with friends and play some beer pong. Your typical good party. People were again asking me if l was Rob Zheng and this time it wasnt for AXP/Breakers/Dance Team. This time these 2 people said they see me in every girls webshots in all their pictures and that lm all over in pictures haha. I told them the pics lm prob in were prob off my pic page and they took them off it cause they were in it. Well l get the names of some of the sites lm in and yo, the pics were MY pics hahaha off my page that they just stole and posted but l dont care. Just some AST girls and Dance Team girls. Cool still that people know me for something and made some new friends. After hit mama's b4 going to 30. EVERYONE was at mama's Jess Rachel Becky AST Girls Laura JB Tony and it was so social. I could barely eat my buffalo pizza cause l was talking so much. After that hit 30 and some of the other 314 girls show up. Chill there and people from 69 were at 30. Yo it was sweet. Hit back and chill with the 115 guys and then the 314 girls came to my place to chill since they got locked out and when they got in, said night and now lm here. lm so glad l brought my friends to such great parties tonight and they had alot of fun. Still all l care bout is my friend's having fun over me if l take them to a party. I musta annoyed them tho asking 'are you having fun?' 513423 million times but l mean, you know how it is. Also l feel bad, other people thinking they thought l hated them or thought l was to cool for them. Im really really not like that at all l swear. I seriously dont hate anyone cept the weirdos who just like to randomly start shit and l'll be friends with anyone as long as l meet them and they're nice people. But lm glad things got straigtened out. Yo l love my fucking life. Late.
Posted 10/29/2005 at 2:23 AM
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Friday October 28, 2005
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Sup Guys, wow tonight was truely amazing. Shoutout to AXP and AST, l love you guys.. So wake up and hit my classes. Turn in my history paper and go to sleep in class. Wake up to Suzy trying stealing my pen from my hand lol. Everytime l sleep in a class lm in with her, she likes to do something to show how passed out l am. After that, hit math class and take my test. Im guessing l got a 100% on that. Maybe a bit under cause l really didnt feel like showing my work tho it was mental math anyway so there was nothing to show haha. Get back and play some Counter-Strike Source and lm still doing fine. Gon play it soon after l type this actually, well after my shower. But yea, get dinner with Rich and yo l ate SO MUCH. 5 plates today. Food was so good.. Chicken, Mashpotatoes, corn, Speggeti and meatballs, more chicken, 2 plates of turkey and A1 sauce. OMG yo l got the end of the turkey for my 2nd plate so it was this HUGE CHUNK of meat, god was l happy. I beasted that shit. Rich told me l remind him of a dog on meat haha, l dont curr, it was 7pm and my 1st meal of the day. Hit back and get ready for the drunken hayride with AXP and AST. Talk a bit online and gear up. Brian gets me and Rich and hit 56. All the Bros show up and we all meet up with everyone else and all the girls of AST and ride to Sheetz 1st. Wow so seriously l think there was 13-14 cars tonight rolling up together. It was like 2fast2furious. Like there was alot of AXP Bros, like high 20's but the AST girls plus their pledges l think was around 40 girls, maybe a bit over or under. It was ridiculous. Get on the hayride and put a keg on each basket of the hayride. Just drink, sing songs, tell jokes, socialize spot to spot. Its weird how pointless it really was to just ride in a hayride while drinking but for SOME reason it really was alot of fun. Like we coulda all just drank at someones place but l mean just being out and something different l think is what made it fun. After that we have a big ass bon fire and drink and chill there. Really nice, took ALOT of pics tonight. Jeez l take so many pics when l drink. It was awesome tho cept burning up my shoes in the fire and stepping in ridiculous amounts of mud and horse shit haha. Get back and hit Spuds with some of the AXP Bros and AST Sisters then 56 to drink the rest of the 2nd keg. Just alot of laughs and chilling. Seriously its one big ass group, AXP and AST. l love them to death and nights like these, l dont even know what ld be doing if l wasnt friends with them. Late.
Posted 10/28/2005 at 1:41 AM
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Thursday October 27, 2005
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Sup Guys, hahaha things are going sooooo0o well. So wake up and chug one of my starbucks frappuchino's at 1030am. By 11 when l had to get up, l was up. So hit my 3 classes and good l went tho l slept through philosophy and history, just got on the attendence sheet. Get back and get a burger which l save for right now, right now lm eating this burger l got at 3pm. At 445 meet up with Rich and get food upstairs. Yo l was staaaaarving so l ate 4 plates at the cafe. Mashed potatoes and corn and graveyyyyyy and that noodles with onions, jalepenoes, broccoli, weird sauce, peppers and all this amazing junk. Turkey and gravey, YO how good did l eat today?! Rich comes to chill for a bit and then play some Counter-Strike 1.6 and yo IM STILL GOOD!! Ussually a average game lasts where my score would be like 30-20 or so. 30 kills, 20 deaths. Today l stayed in a server so long that ussually the longer you stay, the worse your ratio gets. But yea, l was 166-80. A lil above a 2:1 ratio, wow was l so happy. K so after is dodgeball. We lost 3-4 games. I was so pissed esp that l dove around and cut my arm open again. We played well tho l'll say. So after the game was over at 820pm l head to dance practice since second l'd get in my room ld be leaving. Get to risley and call up Brown just to see how hes doing. Talk for a bit then dance team shows. Dance Team girls were freaking out by my blood as l figured. Lindsey on the team tells me she heard my fraternity is having 2 kegs tonight at 56. 56 seriously has kegs nearly every weds, thurs, fri, sat. So lm like yea they prob are. So we have dance practice and it was tiring but l feel a bit better since l know the dance better. People were getting stressed out but they'll be ok in the end. Its just a stressful time, thats all. So yea after that hit my room and wash up b4 a party. Meet up with Lindsey from the dance team and hit 56. Yo as always, great party. 1st off, l love it alone cause l see seriously nearly ALL my Fraternity Brothers and Sorority Sisters. When l walked in, l high fived, shook hands with and hugged like 25 people b4 even asking where the cups were at. Just feeling really recognized is really nice. Cups for me costed well.. being a brother, nearly nothing and girls always drink for free so yea girls who read this, you wanna party with us. Then later on l see Russ chilling there so just as a joke when we see each other, l start dancing to whatever song was on tho the beat was a bit to slow. Dance a bit and then l stop to say whats up and he starts dancing, l look around and half the party is watching us in the living room dance. Russ finishes his set and l start dancing again and back and forth we went. Honestly, l wasnt going for that for real. Like if l did that for the reason to get a circle to watch us dance, thats to much. Its like bragging without words, ya know?! I hate people like that and wouldnt ever do that. I danced cause me and Russ always show each other shit we make up and how we're doing since we're good friends, met through the Ku Breakers and are also in the same fraternity. But yea it was fun and then lm hearing around me and check it l love this shit 'Hey isnt that kid on the dance team?' 'l think so, l know he breakdances.' <- teeeehehhehehee  .
Then like me and Lindsey(whos on the dance team) play beer pong won our
1st game, lost our 2nd. Alot of people were complimenting me on my
dancing and yo, lm modest about it so l dont seem like an ass, Example
'Hey nice dancing man' 'Yea thank you' and simple shit but really, l
just wanna be like 'yea you really liked it?! Good good, anything
specific you really liked jw?!' but yea, compliments....... l love them
to death cause its reassurance that my practicing is paying off. After
get a ride back cause Lindsey's roomate is friends with Mario who lives
with 3 of my AXP Bros. Weird how everyone knows each other still, ya
know?! Hit back visit 314 girls and Josh. On the way back, some other
people at the party earlier were like 'yo its the kid that dances!!' and
lm like 'yo0 whats up guys, have fun?!' and while walking away l hear
'yea that kid also breakdances' I LOVE IT!! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!! Seriously, l think people know me more for the breakers and the dance team now over than being a Brother of AXP. I guess l dont wear my shirt alot too. I got 4 AXP shirts and 1 Ku Dance Team shirt and we're gonna get our 1st Ku Breakers hoodie. I really love all 3 and like being affiliated with all 3. Im gon be wearing my AXP shirts more often tho. Its just a way of saying whos my posse without announcing it. I'll be wearing my dance team shirt to classes and parties too sometime just cause l want people to know and when we get the hoodies for the Breakers, l'll def be wearing it too. I dont know what it is, if maybe lm insecure tho l dont think so but the attention and compliments and just being active in KU in general, l fucking love being here. People back home saying they wanna go clubbing with me. I love my life. XoShOrTiEoX20: cant go without wit mr dance partnerr l got funny friends too hahahaha I LOVE THIS ONE... MCisJuSt2GooD610: and then u cock smack her MCisJuSt2GooD610: cuz she didnt respond MCisJuSt2GooD610: be like what it is ho and BAM MCisJuSt2GooD610: mushroom tattoo right on her face May go to Rutgers University and party with the AXP brothers there with some of the bros here. We'll see. Getting drunk tomm and going on the hayrides with the Bros. Cant wait for that shit hahahaha, what a baaaad idea. 3 kegs apparently at SigPi's next 3 nights. Oh shit.. Late.
Posted 10/27/2005 at 1:30 AM
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Wednesday October 26, 2005
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Sup Guys, guess whos wasting their life awaaaaay. So yea, skip both my hr and half classes today. Just a math test review and who knows what it was in history but its history hahahaha <-cheesy joke but had to say it. So yea, l got ALOOOOOOOOT of sleep. Maybe to much sleep. I SLEEP SO MUCH!! Like seriously 8-11 hrs a day when l skip classes. Ok so like lv had 5 classes this week so far and went to 1. This is bad so what l did was got Starbucks doubleshots from the C-Zone. $2 bucks each but if it gets me to class the days l need it(everyday) then good. Plus l wont sleep in class, hopefully. But yea, thats gon be alot of money if l drink it EVERYDAY so l'll use it on the really tired days. Maybe when lm older and have a job that pays well l drink one every morning or something. I dont like using things to enhance things about me and rather do it naturally but whatever. But yea, like l wont take sleeping pills because l dont wanna be dependent on them as well as other drugs to cheat my way through an issue. So anyway, do a good amount of school work today. Honestly, its the only thing l do that makes me feel good about myself. Isnt that sad? But yea, like l feel ok when l do school work knowing, lm suppose to be doing this tho l dont want to. Some of it isnt so bad as other things but whatever, its still forced school work ya know? Who likes to be forced to do something regardless. Even if its something you like, just that you dont have the option to say no kinda blows. So just sew my busted Nike Free Shoes that tore during my dodgeball game yesterday, in Marie's room. They're $90!! They are so light its amazing tho. Fashion wise... ehh l'll stick with my Reebok Classics and Pumas. Been playing alot of Doom3 again since last yr. That game still scares the shit outta me. Dark corners everywhere, zombies and monsters with their cheap scares everywhere. Im gon play some more pretty soon for a good hr or so till my shoulders hurt from crunching my body in fear. I'll just blast some rock music and shit to get me pumped. 'Push it' by StaticX and 'Dig' by Mudvayne are 2 of the best. Maybe some gangsta rap since l'll be shooting things, l might as well have a thug mentality about it rather than a thin chinese boy. Oh man lm kinda scared to play. I just keep telling myself, 'dont be scurred'. Oh yea, lm talking to Steph again haha l should eat my words(if only that were possible). I may see her this weekend if she can get a ride up. We'll see what goes on but thats IF l get to see her. If not, ehh who knows. Hearing some things l dont wanna hear but whatever. But yea, thats that. Dance practices were both good today. 1st with the BBoys lv decided to really put in the time to learn headspins and was practicing them for a while tonight. At a slow rate working on balance l can get just about a full rotation and doing it fast, most the time l'll crash b4 1 rotation but sometimes l'll get a lil more than 1. Its not the balance lm worrying bout but l dont understand how the 'tapping' works. Like it seems after the 1st whip with the legs and push with the hands somehow the body gets ahead of the legs and hands and the hands replant and legs reconfig then repeat and do it a few times getting faster and faster till its good. Im also practicing them from starting at a standing position then whipping into them similiar to windmills. It really is true, once when you get a power move down, the rest isnt so hard at all since you learned the whole body whip motion. Also still working on elbow spins, 1 1/2 spins is still my max at full speed. Also gon go for 2000's now. Hit 1 full rotation but my balance is off. Im just trying to hit as many as l can b4 crashing. My goal is 3. I guess you can tell lm working on alot of power moves. Flares, windmills, headspins, elbowspins, 2000s. lm not trying to be a powerhead but its good to have in competition just against someone in general who pulls it out and if lm in a simplier dance competition like a club or whatever junk, its a great crowd pleaser as crowds dont give so much credit to footwork and poses as much as other dancers do. I wave the Ku Dance Team to come over and chill with the Ku Breakers for a bit. After Ku Dance Team practice. So that practice was just tiring. l was already winded from bboy practice and the warmups alone just ached tho they werent as long. Worked on the new dance and learned more stuff. Yo its alot harder than our 1st one but lm liking it more than our 1st one. Our 1st one is something typical you'd see of a dance team, cool moves with smart choreography. This one is fast paced complex moves and it looks really good but l just dont have it at all yet. Like l got the motions down but its still reacing rather than l know whats coming up next. I just dont have it clean yet, so unclean its like shit. Like big fat mammath shit <- did l go to far with this one? My badd. This one set of arm movements tho for 5 counts b4 a double turn is really sweet tho. Props to Vi the choreographer. Playing some Doom3 pissing my pants. Maybe l should go pee 1st.. Late.
Posted 10/26/2005 at 1:53 AM
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Tuesday October 25, 2005
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Sup Guys, lm so tired all the time, its so bad. Rob Zheng <- wasting his life awaaaaaaaaay. So yea, wake up at 1030 and then 1045, 11, 1130 and decide to skip my 12 class. Wake at 1230 and decide to skip my 1pm class. Go to my 2pm class and fall asleep. SUCCESS!! Yea right, this is really bad. Anyway, my day starts after this. Just FINALLY finished my 1st history paper. 2 papers down, 1 more to go. Play some video games and get food. Play dodgeball with the guys and we lost a few games and we started to catch up but in the end we lost the best of 7. I was pissed esp l bruised and scrapped my limbs up. After get dinner with Mike and his gf Jamie and just chill and talk bout random junk. Hit dance practice and it was a good practice as usual. Just worked on the new dance, the missy mix. Im really liking it alot. Its pretty hard but its sharp. I notice the team seems to be picking up the choreography faster this time around. Anyway, tired from that hit back and just chill. Dl some mods for Doom3 and lm gon start that now. Late.
Posted 10/25/2005 at 2:9 AM
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Monday October 24, 2005
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Sup Guys, today was so long but in the end pretty fun. So yea, meet up with the dance team girls to go to Dorney Park and work there for the day to raise funds for the dance team. I mean we're getting new tops and bottoms soon, just decided on them today so its worth it. I ended up working Steel Force which is funny cause l loved that ride for a long time now and would go on it over and over again. Well its not like its the 1st time since l flipped my spot like how l was a lifeguard and how l use to work at sesame place's Sky Splash which l was also obsessed bout... good times jumping in and out tubes and catching up to other tubes and jumping in them.. Anyway!! Me and 6 other people were running it and it was pretty simple. Joked around with the guys and met alot of people. The Dance Team from Pennstate Berks were there scattered around too. Got food later on my break, visited the other dance team girls and stole alot of hot choc for me and the people l was working with at Steel Force. End of the day they let me out early so l run around and go on all the rides. Hit Steel Force a few times, Hydra and Talon haha. Me Kristen and Carissa all met up and yo my head is right now spinning again prob cause of the vertical spinning of Talon. Pce out hit home. Get food at the cafe and get ready for dance practice. Fun as always, this time we were picking out our pics we liked for the website and finding sizes of the new warm ups. I like them alot. Also we are starting our new dance. Missy Elliot mix that lm already liking. It is really hard but its so damn good. Once when its down its gon look SOOOOO GOOD haha l cant wait but yo its just reacting rather than dancing for now. I get so fustrated when l dont have a dance down so soon and l know its no biggie but its just annoying worrying ya know. Also reading other people's xanga and stuff, lm getting jealous of other people's oppurtunities in dancing. I mean l see myself in a good spot but its just natural to be jealous of someone whos got a better spot. I mean Dom isnt going to college, just chilling and working and he gets so much more practice time. Ryan too, teaching Karate all week and whenever hes not, hes dancing. Then l read Mantiis's xanga bout how he was at Rocrite which l didnt go to on friday so l could party and then how hes going to this event and that event and then practicing in NYC and ael5yealgjja. I got my fraternity to worry bout, 2 papers to work on even tho l just finished one, tests and just social life in general is just so much. I wish there was more than 24 hrs in a day. Its just WAY TO SHORT!! Esp with how much l sleep. Ughhhhhhhh whatever, l'll figure it out but l should be practicing more. Lastly Steph has been trying to talk to me everyday since l stopped talking to her. She think its a game. I mean l take ALOT of things just as games so life doesnt seem so stressful at times and it def helps me relax but not with people and not with school work. I look at nearly everything else in life as a game, mostly just if l won or lost. I even take dancing as a game when l freestyle like dance dance revolution, just hitting the beats right and see how long l can last without fucking up. People tho, nahh l like to think l treat people with alot of respect. She doesnt get its over and its not just one of our arguements. Late.
Posted 10/24/2005 at 12:48 AM
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Sunday October 23, 2005
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Sup Guys, HOMECOMING WEEKEND WTF!! Let me tell you the benefits of being in a Fraternity called Alpha Chi Rho. So 1st off l didnt sleep last night, l stayed up after the party and Marie came to chill with me till bout 530am while Nikki and Mike were asleep in my room. After Marie and Nikki pced out l started working on my paper till 830am. I actually think l may stay up all night every fri and sat night and sleep during the full day since theres shit to do. So yea, meet up with the dance team to support the lax guys and their game against alumni. Its homecoming weekend so yea everyone is back. Good seeing the dance team as always but it was just so damn cold today. But whatever, its chilling and socializing. Hit back, get food and go to sleep at like 1130am. Sleep till bout 7pm and get dinner. Visit the 314 girls and chill for a bit and work on my paper till bout 930pm. I was pretty sure l wasnt gonna go out but l decided too. Hit 314 and we all head out along with Matt to party. So 1st we hear of chinaking and pink house. Pass pink house and hit chinaking which was already done so l call the Brothers up and they say 56 noble so go there and yo sweet ass party. On the way, alumni Matt former AXP pres picks me up and spins me around. 1st time lv seen him since last yr. Get to the party, crazy. Brothers drink for free and girls pay only $2. So Marie Nikki Heather Ash Mel and Matt all decide yea we're staying. Hahah drinking for free is great. Along with that, the girls only paid $2 which is really good. Alot of the Brothers were telling me good job on bringing 5 girls haha, girls at parties are like gold. Me and Marie play some beer bong giving Heather a decent amount of celeb shots. She was making them too which is good. Also ahh lm the ball bouncing champion. There are so many cheap ways to sneak in a bounce. Tell people to re-rack and as they re-rack bounce it in there while their heads are down. Another is when your partner shoots to far and they turn to get the ball, you bounce. Theres also the best one in the world which l fall for all the time, when your partner shoots, bounce at the same time. No one expects it. Bouncing is the key to beer pong swear on my life. Esp at the start, if you bounce in a general area, with all them cups and such low force at the cups, its gonna bounce and tap and roll into ONE of those cups. Hit a few bounces and me and Marie and later Heather switched with her, won a few games. Me and Heather even won a game from the start when l hit the very top cup and b4 Bill and Ben(AXP) take it away, Heather hits it too. Yo l flipped out!! I went nuts seriously that we won a game by our very 1st 2 shots. They didnt even do anything. Bill takes away bouncing cause he knows lm all bout it and we eventually lose haha Bill you ass. Party with all the AXP bros and AST sister's and meet some of the AST pledges for this sem, some nice girls. Chill with Matt and the 314 girls and they mixed in well with everyone else. Just other good friends in general were there as always and chilled. I seriously felt like the king of the world tonight. Just sitting there l saw SO MANY mixes of friends together and l really do feel like l know everyone and its awesome. I LOVE MY AXP BROTHERS AND AST SISTERS!! Tonight seriously just was awesome and if l wasnt in the fraternity, l dunno what l woulda done or who l woulda called to figure out my party shit. Tonight and last night actually l dunno what l woulda done. My friends, my family and my party posse. Just a great night as usual then later we all head back. Heather is in my living room chilling with some of the other guys in my suite. Some of my suitemates and other friends are trashed all over the suite and l feel good. So yea, l gotta work on my paper now since l wont have much time till its due(thurs) and then at 9am l gotta get ready and meet up with the dance team girls and we work at Dorney park 1030-630pm and then dance practice 845-1030 wtfff  !! Well better than being bored.Its funny how things are and how its really a small world. Turns out Matt saw me over the summer dancing at a car show event and now we're good friends in KU and l met Mike at the mall when he was just being ridiculous and now lm also friends with him here at KU. Being in a Fraternity(AXP) and being part of the Ku Breakers and now being part of the KU Dance Team just really fills my college life. Seriously, l think about those 3 organizations EVERYDAY. I feel recognized EVERY party night l go out that SOMEONE will say 'hey arent you in Crow/AXP?' 'Yo your part of the breakers right?' 'Hey its the guy on the dance team!'. I love being affiliated with all of them and wearing shirts to represent that is cool to, just cant over do it. I got just a Ku Dance Team shirt for now, 4 AXP shirts and we're getting sweet Ku Breakers Hoodies, just working on the design for now. lm also in Intermural dodgeball but l dont think l'll make a name for myself as much for that haha. I like when people know who l am. Go to Jennie's b4 l hit my room and the movie Rushmore is playing bout a guy in college in so many clubs, his grades start to go down. I hope that wont be me. Late.
Posted 10/23/2005 at 3:19 AM
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Saturday October 22, 2005
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Sup Guys, its 325am. Me Mike Matt Rich Andrew just chilling and Nikki came by to say yo0. Awesome night again. So yea, wake up and hit my 3 classes, nothing special but l had to go to them for turning in papers and for attendance and shit. After class just rest a little and play a bit of video games and talk online to some friends. See what everyones up to for the night cause its friday. I feel bad some friends didnt go out tonight cause its friday and its what you wait for to really go crazy. But l mean everyone has their down time whenever it is. So later on get lunch with RichL and JonS and 3 girls, forgot their names. Then later dinner with Rich Jess and Jared. Rich tossed my phone and somehow the screen is working after over 2 weeks of it being busted. Thats like kicking a person in the face and kicking their teeth straight or some shit. Weird. But yea after chill in my room and talk the guys bout whats up for tonight. Ended up dancing in my room just having a great session tho by myself which l know prob sounds weird but yea, 8-915 just dancing and killing myself in energy dancing in my room. Just going over everything, pretending if it was infront of alot of people and l cant screw up. Yo l was sweating like a beast, so exhausted but after it hit 915, lemme tell you how confident l feel. So Mike and Andrew get to my place and we go next door and get ready with the 314 girls. They help me with what shirt to wear and how to wear it. Its just easier and better to let girls tell me how to dress to impress, ya know? Everyone gets ready and me Mike Andrew and Heather leave 1st to meet up with people to party. So l call up Matt and he meets us outside of his dorm then we meet up with Heather Natalie Steph and Tina and we all hit up baseball which was BYOB and we were like 'ahhh wtf?!' and so l call up some of the Brothers of AXP and hit Jim/Carl/Joe's and then hit 56 noble with all the guys and we drink there for a bit. I felt really bad leading this group around place to place and got them beers from the fridge for them to atleast let them know we're drinking tonight. It was Bobby's beer and after we all headed to Jim/Carl/Joe's place and l bought Bobby a cup in return for the beer taken earlier. Seriously, everytime l bring a group out or people are trusting me to find them a good party, its my #1 concern that they have a good time over myself. Im so anal about it its ridiculous and yet l love people following and depending on me for some reason. So me and Carl's gf play lots of beer pong. We win 4 games in a row and l was hitting the bounce ball taking 2 cups away like a beast!! Im the master at bouncing balls... it may be a bitch move but l dont currrrrr hahaha. So yea the party at Jim/Carl/Joe's(AXP) was slamming. All my fraternity Brothers AXP and ALOT of the AST sisters which was awesome, like old times. Just the 2 groups. It was awesome. Plus alot of random girls cause we're a fraternity and of course just gon invite as many girls as we can hahahahah. Heather and the posse were having a good time and l felt so relieved that they enjoyed themselves. Esp it was the 1st time l was bringing some of the other girls out so l didnt wanna make a bad impressions and them to think 'Rob doesnt know where the fuck hes going, lets not follow him to a party next time'. After all hit Mama's and chill and l saw ALOT of high school friends there who were visiting diff people. Pretty crazy shit. Alot of other just AXP and AST friends were there and just seeing the group of people l brought to the party mix in with my other friends was really nice. Just seeing friends mix in general is pretty cool. Head back and Mike Matt Andrew and Rich all come over. Nikki and Marie all come by too and were all chilling, watching tv, eating food, playing online whatever. I started writing this entry at 2am and now its 5am hahha cause of all thats been going on. Mike is passed out on my bed and Nikki is asleep on the floor and me and Marie are still wide awake just talking and messing around. lm staying up all night so l can make it to south to meet the girls on the dance team to dance at the lax game then l gotta put my black AXP shirt on with maroon letters and meet up with the brothers at the greek life event stuff on campus. After l'll go to sleep then wake up to party then stay up to wake to work at Dorney with the dance team then dance practice. That will be my weekend. Oh yea, Steph is giving me more drama and said we're not talking so thats over. She doesnt trust me drinking and being out with girls and after a few arguements, its not worth it cause it'll always be like this. I can move off this one easily. 'There are things that used to make you cry One of them was me for just a little while Why is it that you had to say Goodbye in your special way You slashed the tires on my car Remember when I said I love you well forget it I take it back I was just a stupid kid back then I take back every word that i said' -Alkaline Trio 'Stupid kid' Awesome night once again. Late.
Posted 10/22/2005 at 3:50 AM
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Friday October 21, 2005
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Sup Guys, BEST THURSDAY EVER!! Wo0t!! K so, so much happened l dont even know where to start so how bout l start from the beginning. Wake up and hit my classes and thank you Susie, she gives me seriously 20 pages printed out of things l need to read for my paper. Well it kinda sux its seriously, 19 pages exact that l gotta read and the font is seriously like font size 8 and ughhh but whatever. After math class which l did get my A+ as l knew l would haha hit back and work on the paper. 5 get dinner with Mike and he comes back to chill and watch bboy competition clips. Talk to Iconz bout going to Rocrite tomm. Rocrite is a BBoy event in Philly every now and then where some of the best of philly attend to and its a big gathering with battles and its always great seeing everyone and how well along they're improving. I would go and l should cause l should show people the new footwork ideas and how my windmills are coming along tho windmills arent that big of a deal, showing progress and what lv been up too is nice. But yea decide lm gon be in KU for the fri night. Its homecoming weekend and EVERY PARTY is like having 3 kegs. Im like <- thats me. So yea hit BBoy dance practice with the Ku Breakers and yo one of the BEST SESSIONS EVER!! I hope they're all like this more often. Well start of some other bboys from around the area, mostly Allentown came by and practice and they're really some cool guys and everyone mixed in fine with them trading advice and discussion moves, theories and the way they're done. Dan came by to chill which was awesome cause its always good seeing him and seeing his improvements and his blow ups have always been nice but they're getting ridiculous now. For myself worked on flares a bit and back to elbow spins with the pad and lm starting to just get a taste of headspins. Im so sick of the 'I heard you can breakdance, can you do headspins?' so yea, right now l have the balance pretty good on my head and soley my head but from standing and whipping down to my head and spinning it gets thrown off, the most of really spun was 135 degress, 75% of a circle for all you math dummies. Just as elbow spins are, the most l get is outta my fast rotations where l just go for it without caring bout balance. But yea, in time later on l'll be working on it. Also worked on my windmills alot more. Im not sticking my elbow in me now which is the newbie way of learning them. Im now on to lv 2 of 4 on windmills as l see it. Now lm just flowing and lm going faster, lm liking it. So next step is to be on my head more on my windmills and the final goal is to have it so well, my hand placement can be anywhere l want. After practice get ready for the boxers and booty shorts party with the Dance Team and Lambda Chi. Meet up with the girls and hit the party and yo the jungle juice tonight was MmmMm mmMm good.
Flip cup downstairs, may l say strip flip cup? Hahah oh man dancing
upstairs a lil bit and l hear 'Bring'em out bring'em out' hahaa and well
l knew what everyone else was gonna do. Just socialize, some other
friends came by and girls on the dance team were telling me to come out
that someone wanted to talk to me. Really good time, seriously. Took
ALOT of pics tonight cause not many people had cameras on them cause
theres no where to put it, l took pics for alot of people to send them. After hit mamas with Danielle and some AXP and AST friends were there. Sam Drunk Jenn Brian Ryan Pamela Kim Aaron Megan Jackie, to name all of them for the hell of it. Chilled with them and ate some of their food and talked with other friends at Mama. Walk back most the way with Brian and Pamela and head back to UP. Chill with Jennie for a bit watching Late night Conan O'Brian and Carson Daly <- not as cool as he use to be. Hit back to my room and lm here looking like this ->  .Seriously things picked up. Just alot of hope for the future. Just seeing how things are with my fraternity AXP and the sister sorority AST. The Ku Breakers are really improving and its so satisfying watching my friends improve off advice l gave them and seeing myself improve over advice they gave me. Also my 'exits' are cleaning up SO WELL!! My lil snap poses to my feet are looking sharper than ever and windmills are improving. Honestly, what lm looking forward to the most is seeing how great of a dancer l can be in the future and wondering where it may take me. I mean honestly, since 9th grade dancing around in my living room, l never thought ld be this into it and improving this much and dancing so well along with being on a college dance team. NEVER SAW IT COMING!! As it goes with the Ku Dance Team, yo l love these girls. Right now its kinda funny cause lm feeling that older brother kinda role but not really. Just a lil, like lm their good guy friend that watches out for them, yao mean? Like not TO MUCH as the big brother role and more as just their guy friend but l dunno, they're really some of my good friends now. Im seriously not there to mack on them cause l know thats what some people think l joined for or whatever but its really not. Like some people dont realize how serious l am with dancing. Now male cheerleaders who are straight.. they're the guys to watch out for. lm so sen sur........ cut your body up and stuff you in my couch like druuuUugg money!! Haha no but for real, being on the team alone gives me a feeling of accomplishment. Like lm that good right now. I guess l should look at things at how far things have come rather than getting fustrated bout the future so much. Things have been in my favor in the past. This entire day was amazing. Im feeling really good about myself. Late.
Posted 10/21/2005 at 3:35 AM
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Thursday October 20, 2005
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Sup Guys, lm so sore ughhhhh. Hahaha wow MYSPACE PEOPLE.. Like its own race of people, hot girls and weirdos. So wake up and hit my classes, nothing to bad. Wait around and meet up with my philosophy teacher to get my paper back and get advice and go back to my room and work on that. Call Steph and talk for a bit then work back on the paper. After, dance practice. Got food right b4 practice which was a bad idea and l knew it. I was just SO HUNGRY and wouldnt have been able to wait another 2 hrs. Went over the dance and lm fine with it now. Its subconcious in my head. Well cept l totally fucked up once worrying bout the pumps lol but shit happens but hopefully not when l really perform it. Got some laughs as usual and seriously, our president has to be one of the more ridiculous ones. 'Who Ha He!!' hahahaha oh man, her sound effects for motions. Gotta love'em. We got our social with Lambda Chi tomm, should be fun since lm cool with some of them and Vi called me just now to talk bout costumes since lm the only dude lm gon be different. Was gon hit a party with the Fraternity Bros AXP but so sore from dancing l decided not to as l got ready. MYSPACE.. its so good and so bad all at the same time. Ughh some people are just so ridiculous tho. Its so retarded. Ok the cool thing bout myspace.. When you go out to a party back home and you meet a ton of people, when you come home the next morning you got a few friend requests of some of the people you met cause they're friends with your other friends on myspace and happen to see you. Then you click theirs and see some others you met and add them and talk with them there and sometimes things develop. Its good for keeping in touch with friends back home how lm using it. I dont really IM people back home since theres not to much to talk bout but l'll leave a msg of whats up and how lm doing and its on my time so its nice. BADD BADD THINGS BOUT MYSPACE AND YO I'M PISSED!! Ok people who have the most conceited pics on there.. ridiculous. AND AND the stalker myspace people. Now ok yea, if l see a hot girl of a friend, l may send an add and say whats up in a comment. Im NOT going to comment nearly every one of her pictures saying the most stupid pointless shit. You know what l saw today. Well my friend Ash commented 2 of my pics and is like comment mine, they're new so just as a joke l said 'Check it right, lm a weird stalker kid on myspace who will comment nearly the same thing in every pic and suck up to your ass in hopes you will like me.. hey your sooo hott!! :}' Well then next picture is a pic of Ash with glasses on and l was thinking 'whats the most TYPICAL thing to say if l were some dorky kid that would comment every pic and to my thought 'glasses are hot' were what came out and somebody already said it. http://viewmorepics.myspace.com//index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=8795686&imageID=262215267 Well then l started laughing like hahhaha l bet this kid is one of them stalker kids who commented atleast half these pics with something stupid. HE WAS AND GOD DAMN DID HE SAY STUPID SHIT. So l got angry and well.. http://viewmorepics.myspace.com//index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=8795686&imageID=262217048 Yea its people like this that make me think theres alot of freaks out in the world. Lori's myspace when l was seeing her early in the summer. Wow this one gangstar child said shit that made NO SENSE. 'Im me drive ma' WTFF and then 'ok lm out ma, pray before you eat cause you dont know what they put in your food ma.'... People are ridiculous and you will see them on myspace. For a good laugh or if you wanna see some freaks. www.myspace.com Late.
Posted 10/20/2005 at 12:25 AM
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Wednesday October 19, 2005
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Sup Guys, yo lm so tired ALL THE TIME!! So l set my alarm to wake me up at 1030am. Wake up and go back to sleep with the alarm at 11, 1130, 12, 1215, 1230, Wake up for real and then decide to skip my 130 class and sleep till 220pm. YeaaaAaa.. so wake and hit my math class, another A+ on a quiz cause lm genius like that. Hit back, talk to Steph(whos sexy) and decide to play video games. Lots of video games. I decided to do what l did a bit over a week ago. Play ALOT of video games till l get a headache and lm sick of it and l can do my work. I honestly been doing alot of work lately, the most work lv done all yr so far and it paid off but now work is dreading and l dont feel GOOD about myself doing work. I just want to distract myself and hope many IMs pop up. So now it is time, time to play Commandos2 again and play it l shall. So after l write this, lm gon play video games till about 430-5AMish. K so back to life. Hit my dance practices and yo lm so sore. My right leg to start is ALOT better. Its just one semi big bruise on my leg under the knee cap more on the right side and it doesnt hurt to use my kneecap but some moves that brush my right leg on that side still hurts somewhat. But yea worked on flares and windmills HARDCORE!! My wrists ache but whatever, lm improving a bit and any improvement is always nice. Windmills are fine but with my head that adds that extra speed and takes less energy, still not hitting it. Im getting a bit better with the understanding but the actual doing is still just slamming everywhere. Exhausted as hell at 845 l walk across the upstairs with the Ku Dance Team and practice with them. Stretches were just so tiring cause l was so tired in general. So do the dance outside and the ending move is good cause its on grass. B4 running out tho all the bboys upstairs were telling me to do windmills on the wood now and see how well l do. Ha hit that shit. Hit 4 windmills and ran out. So yea lm feeling ALOT better bout the dance cause l know where all the steps are and when they are at, FINALLY!! Everything is in place and tomm lm just gon clean it up perfect. Im feeling alot more relieved now. We also got a social with Lambda Chi on thurs which should be fun. Got some friends in there and having a set party is always nice. Dancing at the LAX game sat morning and yo, l gotta wake up around 8am that day.. 8AM!! FUCKK!! So l think fri, after class lm gon take a big ass nap then whenever l wake up, eat, school work party and then stay up all night till the next day so l def make it then after dancing l'll go back to sleep cause sunday l have to wake up early for Dorney park and l'll be pulling a 2nd all nighter. Lately things been a bit better. Nothing that hype lately but enough stuff to look forward to. I just been so tired lately is sux. I dont even practice toprocking in my room as much cause my feet straight up ache. So you all know what Toprock means, its a BBoy(breakdancing) term meaning generally dancing at a performance level. Higher than just casually dancing with friends at a club but lower than a music video or on stage for the MTV music awards or something. Just think at a club when a circle forms, its at that level. Theres also some set basic moves in it that every general bboy should know, nothing hard at all. Just like how a person who plays basketball knows how to do a layup. But yea, we'll see how far dancing takes me in some time. I'll keep working on it and maybe one day you'll brag bout how you use to read my xanga lol. Late.
Posted 10/19/2005 at 1:14 AM
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Tuesday October 18, 2005
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Sup Gangstars, everyone is ridiculous. Its over, the whole world has lost it. Start off, l woke up much earlier than l ussually do. 930am <-wow. Print my paper out and meet with my Philosophy teacher to check out my 6 page paper. Kill time in the lib, eat food and hit Philosophy class where l slept then my next class was canceled. So was out at 2 and paid Carl to ride me to see Steph but that fucked up since l couldnt find her and call her cell since she dont have one now. Surprise not. Called her up and talked with her for a while and she wasnt feeling to well so she went to sleep and l got dinner with Rich. Baseball table staring me down a bit, kinda shady.      <- baseball players reaction to my presence.Yea that one douche bag was there again, the one that wanted to kick me outta the party cause l didnt personally know any of the baseball players at the baseball party tho l paid for my cup. Retarded kids who think they have power.. Rich came by to chill for a bit and hit back. Do some work till dance practice and hit that. Dance practice........... Ughaghkafjga.. So worked on the dance we're gon be doing on sat at the lax game. What lm really worried bout is waking up in time for it. 9am we gotta be there. So that means wake up at 820am. I think if l set an alarm that early that l'll sleep through it and miss it completly and they'll be pissed. Ontop of that, the dance is getting hard cause some of it is still so new. Its getting better and l did wanna review it but waking up at 920am, god lm so tired. Im pretty worried l may miss or forget something small which will lead away from the whole dance and l really wanna be perfect this coming performance and all but this being the 1st is a big deal just cause well 1st impressions are alot. Just hopefully work hard next 2 nights and get it. I asked alot of people alot of questions to reassure myself on shit here and there. As hardcore and serious practice was, the last 20 mins or so was laughs once again. Jess's sound effects are ridiculous haha and occasionally she'll make sounds so ridiculous to motions, l'll make really weird laughs cause its so funny and lm not prepared to laugh. So yea now l got a shower and watching Conan O'Brien and some stuff on history channel bout Truman and Rosewell and then this stuff on the Da Vinci Code. Interesting stuff. Lately lv been noticing alot of things bout alot of people. Just l dunno, some people really just dont know how to relax and enjoy themselves and just be cool. Its crazy what people will do for attention. Its a really big world so everyone cant always be watching you, douche bags. Also to the 'cool' kids, lm sorry that shit never existed where lv seen. Theres to many people to pay attention to one group. Anyone that acts to cool for anyone else to me looks like a complete ass. There are alot of ass's out there. I wish more people just worried bout having fun and not start shit with random people for whatever reason. Kinda makes me wanna sit in my room rather than be out cause of all the retards that are out there. Late.
Posted 10/18/2005 at 1:13 AM
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Monday October 17, 2005
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Sup Homies, RELIEF <- its happening!! Ok to start of my shoulders are in alot of pain and are really tight BUT metaphorically there has been a great weight lifted off my shoulders. Wake up late again at 2pm only to work on my Philosophy paper. Get lunch and relax a bit b4 our headshots for the dance team website. Lindsey picked me up from my place, THANK YOU LINDSEY!! We went to Vi/Amanda's place and took our pics. Filling out this thing that's gonna go on the site l had the urge to list all my favorite movies. It said favorite: color, movie, food ect and said movie(singular) but people put more than 1 color down as favorite color and l put for my colors, white, blue, pink and brown cause its my favorite colors to wear. <- Notice the picture. But yea l listed l think like 20 movies. Any just good movie me and my friends watched over and over again, Ghosts of Mars, How High, Anchorman and such. For the 3 words to describe me, Brown was cracking me up with ridiculous things to put. Originally l was gon put like, outgoing, confident, aggressive but thats laaaame. l put like outgoing l think tho just to have something normal but then like l had something like samurai or emperor of zheng dynasty or some stupid junk hahaha which isnt even 1 word. Ahh who cares, like anyones gon be like 'wow l love aggressive chinese guys that can dance' ya know? If it makes someone laugh.. Cool. ANNOUNCEMENT: I just found fries in my desk from earlier today.. K back to my life. After hit back and Mike says 'Food!!' and l say 'Yea!!' so we went downstairs at the cafe to eat. Joey came by and ate with us and then both Jenna's from the dance team came to sit with us and chill. Later hit practice and worked on our main finished 1st dance along with learning the new one. Its stressful cause we dont got much time and its harder than our 1st one cause of the motions in general dont flow well in my head, like lm not positioned to think lm gon do the next thing next and some stuff are on 8 where it'd seem like its the start of a new 8 count being 1 if you know what lm talking bout and it just confuses me so l have to count 12345678 in my head and its so annoying or l screw up cause just naturally hitting things on beat l'll go a bit to fast so it feels right, yao mean?! So yea dance practice was still full of laughs. The head cut thing brought some good jokes and some retardation is always funny. After hit the shower and work on my paper for a good hr and half and finished it. Yo l feel like this paper is one of my best pieces of work no joke. Ontop of that its suppose to be 3-6 pages and its 6 pages perfect. Ahh tomm l show my prof and he'll look over it and l'll edit whatever so l get an A cause its 30% of our final grade so yea, this paper is a big deal. So happy its done tho working on it on and off for 3 weeks!! My history paper will be started and finished in a day cause l gave up all hope in that class as it is, just l dropped it last yr so l dont wanna drop it AGAIN. Marie came by from 230-320am just now and just chilled watching dancing clips and shit. Thats prob one of my favorite things bout college. Any night you can chill with people easily at 230am without a problem. I mean back home after a party maybe someone will be passing my house and just come in for a bit b4 getting the rest of the way home but still its just more convienant here at college. Tonight talked with Steph for a bit. Everythings fine again lol hopefully no more fights for a lil bit cause all last week... me -> 'What did l do?' 'and you say l always yell at YOU?!' <- Steph. Hahha yea we're good, actually really good and thats one of the best feelings right now cause its just a relief that things seem to be paying off. I havent talked to a girl like this since last yr in oct and b4 that the last time l was that serious was in 10th grade hahahahah oh man. A friend asked me earlier tonight if l'll be able to handle a relationship and honestly, beats me, summer was sweet as shit but l didnt see any of those girls for more than 3 weeks and it was several girls, l had a GOOD ASS summer haha my friends are my cupids. But yea they set me up with girls who just like to hook up and take nothing serious either and in the past 4 yrs l been fucking shit up for me to have a relationship ahhaa so yea, who knows. My theory and my downfall is l talk to much <-see all this crap l wrote?! Steph told me 3 words tho that l didnt expect to hear just yet tho. Starts with I ends with U. Has a big fat LOVE inbetween haha, yea l like hearing stuff like that. 'I love you'. awwWww l know guys l know. Really cute and esp from a really cute girl l feel like everythings falling into place finally. Dancing is going well, lm getting my school work done, never have to worry bout friends or parties and now it looks like lm pretty stable with a cute biddie. Oh yea l looked up the word biddie, which is the term meaning to me and friends back home 'hot girls' and... Biddie - adult female chicken, young bird. Hopefully we'll chill sometime real soon and l'll take a night off from all my nonsense haha. I just wanna come back from a night of dance practice and spoon and pass out. Something simple like that. Watch a movie, eat chinese food, tell her how good she looks and relax. I hope lm set for atleast a lil bit. It'll be nice. Late.
Posted 10/17/2005 at 3:42 AM
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Sunday October 16, 2005
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Sup Guys, hahaha setting alot of goals and accomplishing them is one of the BEST FEELINGS in the entire world!! Beats Meylinda from the Real World smiling at me.. Totally beats it!! So yea wake up at 3pm and work on my philosophy paper forever. Hit the 314 girls and chill with them and get dinner with Mike. Go back and chill with the 314 girls for a bit again and go back to my room and work on my paper. Chill and dl music and do some work. Talk to Steph and ehh who knows. Im trying but it seems like she dont really give. Get ready and meet up with 314's Marie Nicole and Emily. We meet up with Mike and Andrew and 3 other girls and hit 30 main, Sig Pi party. Yo0 sick ass party lemme tell you. 1st off chill with all my friends. My AXP Brothers just come in this big ass swarm haha and yo l loved it. Then later on a few friends show up and just chat with people from last yr who l havent seen in so long. Heather shows up and l flip out hahaa and she came with new buddies Mike and Natalie that l kinda met the other day. Me and Natalie end up being beer pong partners and yo our game lasted FOREVER!! Hahaha so we both end up giving the game up and Rich and Jodi take our place. Yo that table is just way to long. Like ridiculous. Me and some of the 314 girls celebrate bout 'stuff' hahahhaa damn do l love them. So yea then meet some more people off other friends and chill and drink with all my friends and just had one of the best party nights of the yr. Walking back hit turkey hill and just got mad food. I got 3 Burrito's THE BOMB l know l know they're fucking amazing. Then l run across the street and me Rich Mike Andrew and Zach chill with all the AST girls and Bobby was there and we just eat and chill for bout 20 mins. After that hit Mama's and Jimbo and Kate were there along with all other random friends and had a food fight with some girls 2 tables ahead of us that we kinda know then knocking on windows at resturants saying yo to friends. On the final walk back Rich and Mike have races and they realize how similiar they are that lv noticed for a while. They look alike but whats creepy is how hardcore they both are into track and then they're birthdays are a day apart. Me Rich Zach Andrew and Mike all run to 314 and chill with the girls there for a bit then hit my room. I make them some korean spicy ass ramen and Rich can barely take it still after his 3rd bowl he's ever had and Mike cant even take it. Just talk bout all sorts of shit and relax. Its 430am and they just pced out a bit ago. Yo tonight was just fucking sweet shit. Accomplishing alot of goals just makes me feel like lm really doing something with my life. 'Oh mercy me God bless catastrophe There's no way in hell We'll ever live to see through this so Drive yourself insane tonight It's not that far away and I just filled up your tank earlier today' - Alkaline Trio 'Mercy Me' Late.
Posted 10/16/2005 at 4:38 AM
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Saturday October 15, 2005
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Sup Guys, sometimes theres to much going on where l cant even
comprehend if lm actually having a good time or a bad time. Isnt that
ridiculous?! So wake up and get ready for class and end up going back to sleep and skipping all 3 of my classes. WHAT A BAD IDEA!! So 1st off, we had a mini quiz in my 1st class which is just extra credit to my tests, 2nd class was discussions straight up on how to work on the papers, 3rd class we got our tests back and l really wanted to see how well l did. UGHQKHJGOKWHJREGT!! So after l wake up l get lunch with the twins Becky and Jess. Chill for a bit with the 314 girls and 115 guys that were there. Relax then hit my room. For a lil bit lm chilling then 314 girls are having computer problems haha and who do you call?! So help Heather set up her wireless keyboard and mouse and me Heather and Emily get dinner. Socialize and ask around bout parties for the night and found a few things. Danielle and Tanya from the dance team let me know of the things l ended up at tonight. Other people came by our table to talk and met some new people tonight. After chill with the 314 girls, just sitting around room to room talking bout junk and we watched my choregraphy of my dance l made for The Choregraphic Process II for last yr. Get ready and put on some sweats for the Pajama party at Oblivion 519s cliffs and then put on a pink shirt incase it wasnt that great so l could go to the 'pink party' at Julie's whos on the dance team at 512s cliffs. Meet up with Mike and 3 girls and hit Oblivion. Mad dudes so l go to Julie's party. I loved it there. Alot of new people and some l did know so it was chilling with my friends but making new friends <- the best part bout parties. Met alot of people and joked around alot around the beer pong table with some new friends. Played a game and yo that LAST DAMN CUP lasted over like 10 mins. Jungle juice was at the party and yo thats what messed me up. My head is still throbbing and its 4am and l drank this at like 1030ish. Later cops came tho and l felt really bad cause Julie doesnt deserve problems like that and shes upset telling by her away msg. I hope she feels better. Me and Mike go back to Oblivion and play beer pong there. Chill with some people and met a few new people. Me Mike and a group of new people l met tonight all hit Mamas and me and Mike got 24 wings and saw alot of friends at Mama's as usual. Met some people more formally that l met earlier and beasted out on my wings. Leslie and Laura once again gave me and my buddies a ride back!! YES THANK YOU!! I hated the walk there and yo a ride back is SO SWEET!! Thats the best feeling seriously, getting a ride back when l thought l was gonna walk back. Get back and chill with the 314 girls and 115's Josh Beach haha. Just layed around talking and goofing off as usual for a long period of time. Laying on beds talking bout junk and they got this massive pizza with buffalo chicken in it hahah my fav rug is covered in food. So like just chill and well.. some things were happening and l feel bad watching my friends go through shit. Like seriously l rather have their shit happen to me rather than to watch it happen on my friends. I feel really bad seriously and well, not much l can do but just be there ya know? Hopefully things will work out with everyone in the end. Hit back to my room and now lm here at 415am. Wrote Steph an email again hoping shes not to upset with me. We like just talked things through last night and were all good and were on the phone talking like we were b4 shit happened and now l dont get it but shes mad. She said she was gonna get trashed with some guys and lm like aiight thats cool hope you have fun and l dunno if thats what she wanted to hear or expected or if shes just mad bout something else. Like l mean, l dont feel that comfertable that shes out getting drunk with a bunch of dudes but what can l do? l trust her so l just hope shes out having fun and l want her to be out having fun if l cant be there with her. I DONT want her to sit in on her weekends trust me. I do get the way she feels tho when l tell her that lm going out with my guy and girl friends out to party and get drunk. Its fustrating and l really hope it'll be worth it in the end. Late.
Posted 10/15/2005 at 4:22 AM
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Friday October 14, 2005
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Sup Guys, wasssssted. Damn do l love parties. So yea hit classes just making it in time cause lm always tired and got a fucking ass 59 on my history test that l studied my ass for. That shit is discouraging and makes me try ALOT less for the next test l'll say that. So after get some food and chill in my room working on my philosophy paper. I saved a conversation me and Colin from back home had about the topic and read over everything we talked bout and used ALOT of his ideas in my paper tho lm on only the 2nd paragraph. Call Steph and talk for bout half an hr. I think things are gonna be ok in the end. Hit BBoy dance practice and work on windmills trying not to catch myself on my right shoulder on the bone cause thats whats bruising when l go on wood or any harder floor. So yea worked on that, worked on flares and a bit on handhops. 2 hops.. lil improvement. K later on crashed my right knee cap hard on the floor and YO my right leg is SO FUCKED UP!! Just from a few diff moves all crashing on my right leg somewhere then windmill fuck ups are always slamming me there. Pce out. Later meet up with Matt and Mike who also are always at the KU Breakers BBoy practice and see Zach. Zach says hes getting Rich and all hit the 69 baldy party. Yo good time def. Saw some AXP and AST and other good friends. Saw some old friends and made some new ones. Haha facebook is ridiculous. I'll be chilling and always people will call me out and say they know me from facebook. Some people have ridiculously good memory. Its really bad cause l even met a girl tonight that l use to talk to on myspace b4 school started and l didnt notice her till now hahahahahaha. OopPppssaa?! Jamie from the dance team whos also in Theta Phi and some of those girls show and it was a great time. But yea, alot of good friends were there tonight and just chilled then went to Mamas. Tanya Danielle and Amanda on the dance team show up and eat with us and chill and we walked back with them and now lm back. Wasted, think lm sleeping early tonight. As things with Steph, lm writing her an email like l promised her earlier tonight. Just looking at a her pic of her, wishing she was just here in my room chilling with me. Rather than me here by myself thinking whats she doing tho l know right now shes sleeping. Things are way draaaaged out tho. I dunno if lm trying to rush things or what cause things were rushed earlier and now l dont even know what l want or what l should be doing anymore. GIRLS CONFUSE ME  <-me. <-
girls laughing at me. Honestly l question myself alot bout what lm
trying to do and what lm trying to prove now and why. I rather analyze
myself and figure out my shit and fix it b4 lm some weird guy trying to
make up for my past or some shit. I dont think lv ever had any real true
problems and l dont think lm trying to prove anything to anyone but lm
not exactly perfectly set yet. Never being satisfied means constant improvement right? I hope so. Late.
Posted 10/14/2005 at 1:48 AM
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Thursday October 13, 2005
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Sup Guys, today was typical. Wake up nearly late for my class and instead of getting lunch with Rich it was rushing late to class. Hit my classes and nothing special bout that. Later on get my lunch and chill in my room for a bit. Decide the fix up the pics, edit and label and then post them. Then write captions in them and its a full day process. Esp that its 503 pics, yea the most l ever posted at one time ever. Me and Steph talked things out sorta and well, l dont like to say it but lm just gonna 'forget about it' and move on. I honestly just feel lazy bout it. I told her ld call her at 730 and she said ok and guess what, ITS BUSY.... AGAIN. So l call back again 15 mins later and its still busy. I dunno if her mom was on the phone or she just got a call or decided to call someone else. I dunno, l'll hopefully talk with her tomm and maybe it'll get back to normal. We'll see, lm not expecting anything outta it anymore. Hit dance practice and yo l laughed ALOT tonight. I mean at practice l always laugh but tonight was just like comedian day. Hahaha everything anyone screwed up on or thought was weird in some way shape or form, there was a joke to it hahaha and yo they were good ass fucking jokes. Just the new moves people were screwing up on, they'd exaggerate their fuck up and l found tonights practice as comedy hour. Along with that, it was my social time of the day since l only had class and then my room. Get back shower, eat, Conan O'Brian and all that good stuff and well.. NEW PICTURES!!                                                                                                                                                                                                      
                                                                                                                                           
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Posted 10/13/2005 at 2:27 AM
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Wednesday October 12, 2005
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Sup Guys, yo my body is one big piece. Second all my things that been breaking have stopped (comp three times, light bulb, cell phone, mirror) my body is now whats breaking. So wake and hit lunch with Jennie. Drop my comp at resnet and thank you Blue for fixing it. Apparently the new motherboard had to reconfig its shit with the comp cause it was looking for the hard drive in the wrong areas. Hit classes and slept in history. Woke up with drool on my hand hhaha. I see this scribble on my paper and apparently l was so outta it, Susie drew on my notebook and l didnt even notice haha. Smooth Susie. So hit math and learn some shit, some easily learned shit. Get back and hit resnet and Marie and Nikki come by. The three of us get dinner at south and hit back and kill time till its time for dance practice. 1st was BBoy dance practice and yo its awesome that theres so many people there. I love it. Worked on just tricks. Windmills- trying to speed them up, trying to use my head more so lm higher up, trying nutcrackers. Ahh windmills, l will perfect it one day.. l hope. Get those variations down. Worked on flares and lm rising again in the back. Gotta keep working. Worked on cracker barrels which is a high jump and second my body is perfectly horizontal with my face facing the ceiling and back towards the ground, l whip to my left and spin 1 and 1/2 half and land on my feet. Well, l freak out bout half way and freeze in mid air after 1 spin and drop 5ft on my back. Yea my body is a piece. Along with that l have 3 bruises on my right leg, all huge. From the bounce-bounce pike and this knee tap footwork routine l just finished up. So yea pce out and hit KU Dance Team practice. Get to risley and have practice. Just went over the 1st dance a few times and lm really loving it. Just my feet and knees been aching like a beast. Backflip sometimes hits really well and sometimes just crashing and more crashing cause lm not thinking. Came back and just really sore. I sleep so much prob cause of my body aching so bad all the time. My feet esp. Hit back, shower, eat, study, tv. Simple day. Oh yea things with Steph, l have no idea whats really up. It looks like it can pick up tho but l dunno. We'll see what happens in time. Late.
Posted 10/12/2005 at 1:15 AM
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Tuesday October 11, 2005
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Sup Posse people, my sleeping scedule is unusual now. Broadway Dance Company was def a fun ass field trip!! So yea, last night after the club, l ate, got a shower, tried to fix my comp and when it was time to sleep(4am) it was time to go back to KU. Slept a bit in the car, like an hr and then set up my new carpet situation and put things away and then met up with Danielle and Lauren from the dance team and hit CVS and met the rest of the team for NY for our pro dance classes. So bus ride was cool, talked some and listened to music and got some more sleep since l got an hr at that pt. Wake up and l see Debbie with her camera phone right at me and l hear the girls laughing. I get up and look left and right and everyones looking my way. Im like 'oh man what did l do and why are their camera phones out?!'. Apparently l was snooring pretty loud and they were taking pictures  haha
oh well l dont curr they liked it. So yea get to the place and just
chill and talk till class. 1st l had Jazz with like l think 8 girls from
the team and that wasnt as bad as l thought since lv only had a VERY
LIL bit of jazz training but l did aiight. I had the choreography in my
head easily just my technique lm sure wasnt exactly professional.
Hatchett was kinda intimidating as he was hardcore. God damn this one
guy was such a nusaince just clapping these beats and when he asked that
stoopid stoopid question!! AHHHHH!! Anyway for the hr and half of class, it killed my energy. Got some redbull and gingerale in me b4 my hip hop class. Had class with like l think 12 other girls from the dance team with Ant Boogie, warm ups lasted FOREVER!! Ontop of that my right knee cap is swelled like a beast!! I came outta the club with a swollen knee. Who knows when. So yea his choreography was really fast paced. It was alot of 'and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4..5 and 6..7 and 8.' like alot of quarter beat hits. Along with that the song was fast so it was just reacting more than dancing. I hate that but its always like that at 1st. Got it aiight in the end but l ball chain my right front ALL THE TIME when l dance in general and he did it left front and l fucked up plenty of times on that 'get down get down' part. After that a bunch of us run around to get food. 1st it was 5 of us at a 'diner' but we forgot it was NY and your normal resturant food that'd be like 7.95 or 9.95 was all like 16.96 18.95 and desserts alone were $7 $8 and we were all like 'ahh..' and pced. We hit mcdonalds and ALOT more of the team shows up and we eat and chill. Just cool being together outta KU. Visit some people in their classes and watch some dancing and we hit the bus. Bus ride l pass the fuck out and wake up when we get home. Get food with Lindsey and see 314 girls Marie and Melissa and go to their place l been here since with some help on my comp from Zach. Been in Marie's room like all night since l been back cause l need a comp and 2 l hate studying in silence with NOTHING else to do so a lil socializing isnt bad. Just been chilling here with 314 girls and alot of the 115 guys been coming up and chilling. Very relaxing night and a good way to end the week. I love the 314 girls and 115 guys. My posse when lm just back in UP. Well l gotta show Marie stuff on the comp. So lm out. Oh yea, ahh listening to some songs and well as things go with Steph. Hmm lm still trying a bit to maybe make it work but l dont think it will in the end just looking at the situation. Maybe every sept and oct l'll find someone that likes to mess with my feelings. Worrying more bout dancing anyway. I got some ideas and some concepts l def wanna try out. Late.
Posted 10/11/2005 at 12:45 AM
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Monday October 10, 2005
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Sup Guys, oh man Meylenda from Real World. I fell in love!! Haha ok so wake up and talk to Steph. That seems pretty much dead. She never liked that l drank and went to parties and l stopped smoking weed cause she really didnt like that either but she drinks so, yea. But yea, she's telling me she loves me and now its not like that anymore. She was 'doing alot of thinking' and well, seeing each other was a problem and it just seemed rough already tho we werent even an official couple or any crap, l mean if its that much of a problem now, if shes my gf l guess itd just be more drama than we've already had. So yea, l think me and Steph are over. She did tie up alot of my time. So yea get my haircut and l love it cause l love feeling clean. Get Brown and we hit the mall. Hit Abercrombie&Fitch, Hollister and Express for Men and he gets some shit. Nothing that great tho lately at my stores. Get food at Red Robin and yo my stomach LOVES RESTURANT FOOD!! It was great eating out somewhere nice since its been bout 6 weeks. The joys of home. Hit BestBuy and browse. Drop him off and try to fix my comp. Its still fucked up. Talk to a few more people whos going to Club Shampoo and get in my car and GO!! CLUB SHAMPOO!! Yo sometimes l feel like l own that club. Like for real 1st off all my friends that showed. We got Jack Terry and their 4 girl friends that l met from their college. Then Sam(AST) and Alexis show up. Other KU people, this dude l really never got his name but we know each other, house dancer, he was there. Some other KU girls l kinda met a week ago at the baseball house party came up to me. Some other girls that just seen me around in KU were like 'do you go to KU?' ahah and talked. Jo0f showed and we housed in the trance room. All the typical house dancers and bboys were there. Repstyles mostly metal, mantiis, knuckles and phyz ed to name a few. OK REAL WORLD!! So going to the bathroom Meylenda and Danny walk RIGHT BY ME!! I yell 'MEYLENDA DANNY!!' and they turn around and l just say yo. Later they came out and l was just star struck. My mouth had to be hanging open cause she looked up and just smiled laughingly at me and wow did l just melt. Her smile whaaaaaaaaaaat. I was just like 'haha whats up' and she nodded then they were talking to my friend who works at Shampoo and she just stops RIGHT NEXT TO ME and our elbow's were touching!! I know lm a dork but yo, l never expected this!! To see a hot girl on tv and be like 'damnnn shes fine' and then lm right next to her with our elbows touching hahah esp after that smile of hers. OH MAN!! So yea later they came out and threw beads and l was RIGHT UP THERE!! Like seriously under 6 feet from them. Throughout the night me and Jack tagged team groups of girls. I always called the taller ones so Jack isnt grinding with some girl taller than him. Of course which blows is he got the freaky girls while l got the ones that just dance plainly. Damn it, l need to find me a shortie to dance with haha. Danced with some of the girls Jack and Terry brought and l danced in some circles. Some BBoy circles, some house circles and some hip-hop/pop-lock circles. Hit windmills fine just like at practice and topped(just dancing in a circle) my ass off and hit things so clean. So happy l rehearsed my shit. Some skin here and there is missing cause of windmills but thats ok. I made my point that lm improving along with l hit 2 nutcrackers within them. Well its 246am and l gotta wake up at 530am to go back to KU and meet the dance team to go to NY to Broadway Dance Company for our professional lessons. I gotta shower and eat too so l wont be getting much sleep at all esp since l slept at 7am last night. We'll see. I gotta remember to call Danielle to cause lm walking up with her. I cant wait and this is seriously a big deal to me. I cant wait. I think lm gon smoke some weed just for the hell of the fact that lm free to now. Late.
Posted 10/10/2005 at 2:47 AM
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Sunday October 9, 2005
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Sup Guys, talk bout fucking up. So l fucked up my computer again by over multitasking. Dling shows and music on bittorrent, on ares and bitlord. Then Aim and IE. Froze and the BIOS is fucked up.. K so wake up and visit the girls next door and say yo0 to Emily Kendal and Eric. Get lunch and ate with Tanya and Danielle from Dance Team. Dad gets here drop off shit and head home. Get home and chill with Brown and Joss for food. Good seeing them again and already had ALOT of laughs. I can always depend on them if l feel like laughing and yo l laughed alot. Just stories of them at work along with Dom and Dave. So later drop them off as they went to play in a poker tourny. Go get Dom and Dave and we visit Lisa at work. Chill there for a while and Ron comes and chills too. Later pce out and Joss comes by cause he lost $40 in his 1st 3 hands. Damnn that shit blows. To aggressive obviously. Anyway, Dave pces out and we go visit another Lisa at her place along with Katie. Just chill and catch up since its been a really long time since we seen her and a while again till we chill again. Hit back and now lm here. I think lm not realizing the good things l got as much as l should only till when its broken, at risk or when its gone. I dunno, tomm l gotta get my haircut, wanna hit the mall and just buy something haha and then Club Shampoo. Cant wait to see Jack and meet some of his college friends. Late.
Posted 10/9/2005 at 3:25 AM
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Saturday October 8, 2005
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Sup Guys, talk bout being wasted. So yo this xanga entry is gon be up here till tues morning cause lm going home for the weekend. Ahh my 1st weekend back home. SOO!! I wake up at 3pm realizing fuck l didnt set my alarm and l missed all my classes. Study study study and work on my philosophy ethics paper. Get dinner with Rich and socialize with some buddies in the cafe. So yea, l print out all the shit l gotta study for my history test. Gotta memorize 9 people's full history bout a paragraph of info and be able to describe 3 events. Not to bad after l learn it it'll be mad easy and a A on the test. Anyway, talk with Steph online for a bit and that went well and then called her and talked for bout half an hr. Honestly, what can l say bout that girl? Its just a mix of things happening as if we're already bf and gf but we're not, not yet anyway. I dunno. I just hope things between me and her in the end work out well, just l feel bad cause its not really OUR scedules thats fucking us up but more that l signed up for so much shit l dont have time really and l feel REALLY bad. Like tues and thurs l have bboy dance practice at 7 and lm done class at 420 and l get dinner and shit l have no time. Its rough but lm sure it'll work out overall. I just really hope l dont screw things up cause l screwed things up PLENTLY of times b4 hahaahha and wow l feel like a douche bag but it happens. So yea, drop of Jenna's tape and then meet up with Matt Tom and people. Hit oblivion. Wo0t to sausage fests lemme tell you it was seriously like 4:1 guys:girls ratio. Oh well had fun just with that main group of matt, ali, tom, justine, jess and posse. Like l use to see them alot and then it died and it was good seeing that things are still cool with them. Yea got hammered. l havent drank this much in whoa and yea beer pong. Dance a bit and fell on the floor cause balance is still just not right. After head back and walk under the umbrella with Ali and Jess. Get back high fives and hugs and now lm here. Honestly, things are SUCH A MESS. Walking by old main the other day hearing and seeing the lil kids play made me so jealous how they dont have anything to worry bout. That laugh they all seem to have.. its like 'heh heh haha HaaaaaAaa' with a lil crack in their voice makes me so jealous cause they're having so much fun but lm glad they are. I dont know if l wanna teach history to high school students anymore. It just seems like my grades wont be enough and with dancing.. Well with dancing, l love it SO MUCH and l think bout it so much each day that l wanna put my life around dancing but SO MANY people dance and wanna be successful in dance and l dunno. I dont think lm good enough yet to be at that level. Im so unprofessional and thats why going to NY to take professional classes is such a big deal to me. Who knows. Its good to have dreams. With dancing l also decided to put the 'l love you' routine in my toprock lol its kinda or really cheesy but l like it. Either lm gonna make the 'I love you too' motion, 1 2 3 4 or lm gonna make 'I love you' motion, 1 and 2, real quick. I dont curr if l show effection on the dance floor. Its a good way to meet people haha. The 'fan off-call me' has worked b4 and l still use it. But yea, you'll know what lm talking bout when you see it. More and more lm thinking 'what am l doing with my life, honestly'. Late.
Posted 10/8/2005 at 2:45 AM
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Friday October 7, 2005
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Sup Guys, in the end a song that can relate to how things are for me make me feel a bit better. Currently listening to 'Worst day ever' by Simple Plan. Wake up mad tired and its 110pm and l get up and hit my classes. Do ok on my test and me and SuziS get some lunch at the SUB. Hit back and just study. Study study study. Its my life. Its good l played TO MUCH video games where l dont feel like playing cause this game Commandos2 just gives me a headache all the thinking!! So yea study my ass off for a test l got on weds since l wont have much time to study soon. Going home l never study. Get lunch with Rich and 2 of his friends l met and eat upstairs in south. Hit BBoy Dance Practice and just worked on windmills-nutcrackers. OMG talk bout fustrating. Not only is it annoying to work full out on one damn move but it HURTS everytime l mess up which is EVERYTIME cause l still havent hit it properly. Ok here's the scoop if you dont know what windmills are. Just my situation, instead of using my hands to catch myself in the front, lm suppose to bounce on my back and just glide over my front and then land on my right shoulder and glide to my back to my left shoulder then bounce again. I over bounce and land flat on my back EVERYTIME and it knocks the wind outta me and wow, my body aches SO BAD. Leave for my Random Girl Social with the AXP Bros. So hit the Social at 56 and just chill. Good seeing all the bros atleast but decide to leave with Rich to meet Zach at Mama's then people tell us 30 sig pi so we hit that and that was small and Rich and Zach disappear on me so l end up with Jamie and Christine from the dance team and 3 other girls. Hit Mama's then this other party right next to it then cops come and l hide behind a couch with my feet under the couch and back against the wall. Got away and hit 444 to say hey and hit back. Hit back and Jennie sees me and wants to go to 444 so walk back to 444 and chill then came back. Rich is pissed at me for whatever reason l dunno, he always pisses me off too. Just disrespect to your friend really isnt right. Also Steph is mad at me cause l didnt call cause l went to the social so l gotta talk with her and hopefully get her to forgive me and asdgjakfdgjakfl oiasgjaoikdhjo how bout l go away for a little. Atleast home friends keep telling me they miss me and leave me lil notes here and there showing they care. Im going home saturday to see some friends and clubbing at Club Shampoo sunday night. Hopefully this weekend will turn things around. 'I punch in I'm still sleeping Watch the clock, But it's not moving 'Cuz every day is never ending I need to work I'm always spending And I feel like I'm living the worst day Over and over again And I feel like the summer is leaving again I feel like I'm living the worst day I feel like you're gone And every day is the worst day ever Yesterday was the worst day ever And tomorrow won't be better It's history repeating(on and on) Summer plans are gone forever I traded them in for dishpan water And every day is never ending I need to work I'm always spending' - Simple Plan Late.
Posted 10/7/2005 at 1:54 AM
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Thursday October 6, 2005
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Sup Guys, lately things have just been exhausting. It just seems like lm not getting enough oxygen or some shit. So wake and hit my classes. Skip anthropology as l decided to drop that class cause class till 420 everyday cept friday is just not cool. Kinda stupid reason to drop a class but lm a kinda stupid person. I honestly need my sleep/video game time. That extra hr and half twice a week will be nice and fulfilling. So yea head back and at 3pm instead of anthropology class l play Commandos2 alllllll day. Hahahahaha my brain ACHES from the thinking cause it is a action/stradegy and god damn they really make you think. Its ALOT of thinking and planning and coordinating. So after my head hurts l start studying for my history test. I have a test in each of my history classes now. Its good lm dropping anthro so l can get my entertainment time outta the way earlier and l can ACTUALLY DO WORK!! Wo0t to that. So after all that do some work and get some food with Brian(AXP) and some people. Hit dance practice and god damn l am so tired. Not only did warm ups kill me as usual l dunno why since its just warm ups but yea working on the dance full out KILLS my legs. Like you know that feeling you get in your legs when you been running forever, its that 'not enough blood in my legs and its kinda tingly' feeling. Yea l had that. Then doing the backflip lm not even being smart bout it. Didnt flip perfectly and barely landed it and hit the baby freeze(simple cause l need to hold it for a while) and yea. Bout dancing by the way, l notice why all my 'tricks' been slacking. I havent got my shit DOWN down l just got it down when l concentrate and l just been going at it rather than thinking b4 moving <- if you guys get that. Like the gainer lm not thinking 'flick the ankel at the jump, kick as hard as l can'. Im thinking 'GO!!' hahaa and for the backflip in the dance lm not thinking 'jump up, hit the peak, then flip' lm thinking 'one and two and three and FOUR JUMP!!' and with windmills l havent been thinking 'low level, heavy kick, head down' l been thinking '..' <- see l dont think bout anything thats my problem. But yea, now that l notice why my tricks havent been on lately it'll help out and work on it till it becomes subconcious. Out to study some more. Its 1221am and l dont got class till 130pm so l'll be up for a while just reading what crazy people did in the past to get in history books so l can do something obserd and people can read bout me in a few yrs. Late.
Posted 10/6/2005 at 12:23 AM
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Wednesday October 5, 2005
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Sup Gangstarsss, l been sleeping so much lately, its gotten ridiculous. So yea, wake up at 1030 and go back to sleep. My 1st class starts at 130pm but l decided to skip cause l was so tired. Sleep till 220 and get lunch and hit my 3pm math class. At the cafe saw some friends in AXP and AST Bobby Kim and Jetta and walking to class just loitered with some of AXP Bros Russ Carl Ryan and they made me late to class. Class was lame as we learned how other old nations counted math. Hit back and play some video games. Waited for Steph to come on but she never did  .
I'll talk to her tomm. Hopefully l can just see her friday and relax
instead of stress bout parties. She better visit or l'll jump on my
window. Trust me, l wont be landing easy. So yea, dance practices..Dance practice with the BBoys and BGirls and just worked on power moves the whole time with a lil bit on footwork and toprock. Its picking back up a bit which lm happy bout and l cleaned up this footwork set l been working on. Nothing big but something different that will make people be like 'eh look at that.' Nothing 'OMG WHAT WAS THAT?!'. I notice l can hold a airchair alot longer. Like its really stable and lm not cheating it anymore. B4 l use to cheat it by doing it quick after a 6step and tho it'd look like my whole body was on my elbow with all the weight on the forearm, my body was actually going up and there was no pressure but thats why it didnt hold long. Now l can actually 'stick' it and hold it. B4 it also use to put to much pressure on my wrist and is it does to everyone when they 1st start getting airchairs and l already went through that whole 'my wrist is so fucked up l cant do anything' process. Where l pretty much do the diamond body method. Anyway, windmills are getting better. Starting to look cleaner and l can hit them pretty much everytime now. Like several, 6-8 if l feel like. Its a good reassuring feeling. Im still trying to get nutcrackers tho, soon enough lm sure. I need an elbow pad to practice elbow spins. I need to actually just practice on wood. But that was that practice. Hit Ku Dance Team practice and signed up for some card that lm gon cancel in a few weeks only to help the team out. On monday we're going to Broadway Dance Company to take classes and lm pretty excited. I love just field trips in general. Its always a weird feeling leaving Kutztown but always exciting and to New York should be fun. I wonder what these NY classes will be like. I was always suppose to go to them and check it out but never got around to it. I just hope l can get a ride back to KU in the morning. Sunday night l plan to go to Club Shampoo till 2am and l wont be sleeping till 3am so it'll be rough but l really wanna go!! Hahha maybe l can ride with Brown Joss Dom and all when they go back to Jersey City and see if they can drop me off at New York lol. Dance practice itself was fun as always. Cept the part where they secretly try to kill me with warm ups. Damn do my abs hurt. Laughed alot cause these girls are ridiculous with their comments. Like seriously when its relaxed, not a minute goes by without someone making a funny comment. They should just stop dancing and just do stand up. No wait, then l wouldnt have a team. Then it'd just be Rob Zheng Dance Team. HmmMMm sounds good right?! But yea, had fun with them and hit back. Now its studying time for history. Booooo. Late.
Posted 10/5/2005 at 12:24 AM
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Tuesday October 4, 2005
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Sup Guys, today just well.. sucked ass. Wake up and l did not wanna go to class but l had a test so l went. Did ok on my Geology test and skip my last class being Anthropology. Skipped and went back to my room to SLEEP. God all l do is sleep and dance. Wake up get some dinner and play some video games. Go to dance practice and clean up our 1st dance some. Im feeling alot better bout it now. Hit back and talk online for a bit, study for my history test for a bit over an hr and get a shower. Order Chinaking, 2 qts of rice, 1 qt wonton soup, 1 qt hot and sour soup, 2 spring rolls, beer and brocolli sauce. Rice mixed in with chinese soup. MmmMMMm soo0o good. I only ate 1/4 of my food. Thats awesome for $11.45. I eat ALOT less than l use to tho. I dunno. <- this is how dull my life has become. Late.
Posted 10/4/2005 at 1:5 AM
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Monday October 3, 2005
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Sup Guys, ughh to sundays.. So wake up at 330pm and miss my lunch. Shiot. Do some studying for my geology test tomm, l hope l wake up for it. Go next door and chill with all the 314 girls and we get dinner at South. Head back and l tried eating 10 saltin crackers in 1 min and well no its so hard. Hahhaa the girls were telling me if l could eat it all in 15 seconds they'd have sex with me. Motivation lol. Anyway, chill and study till dance practice. Hit that and that was fun just working on cleaning up our 1st dance. I notice l am becoming more flexable during warm ups now. Had fun at practice just chilling with everyone and hit back. Chinaking closed second l got in and wow do l feel like a chump. Played some Commando2 cause its good thinking and watched some Bleach while eating easy mac. Simple day. 2 test and 2 papers. Blows. Late.
Posted 10/3/2005 at 3:57 AM
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Sunday October 2, 2005
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Sup Homies, hahaa what a ridiculous day. Start off, l have alot of friends but alot of people really just hate me too and then, some of the people who wanna kill me become my friend. Life patterns... ahh.. So wake up and do HW all fucking day. God damn l was so sick of it, on www.answers.com writing in EVERY TERM for history l had to know which was like 88 terms OMG how annoying....... So after study for my Geology test for monday. Get food with Marie and Heather for lunch and Nikkie and Ash for dinner, all 314 girls. Talked with Steph a bit and she wanted me to stay in and talk with her and l feel bad cause l was thinking l should just chill but l promised so many people ld show them where places were at and l was already changed and ready and it was 3 diff groups waiting on me. Mike calls and meets up, Jennie and Megan call and meet up and the 314 girls get ready. We then all head to parties. So we hit the rugby party 1st. Its funny how things change. Since Ian and Steve are on the team l had them as a connection then through other parties meeting bubbles, average joe, matt and people lm pretty cool with alot of the rugby guys. Still that one guy, this massive drunk giant still wants to kill me for stealing cups last yr. Walk in and he says 'dont let this kid in, this kid is trouble'. Hahahah its been a while since people use to say that bout me but l kinda miss that reputation tho that was when l was younger. So yea, filling up my cup along with Ash's the guy tries taking my cup saying he's either taking one of my cups or both. I tell him no tho he could easily plow me and he was drunk so it might have happened. He puts his forearm on my throat and against the wall and starts choking me telling me to give him a cup and l still say no and the rugby guys were all telling him to back off and that lm cool so he should let me go. Nikki starts hitting him and hugs me and gets inbetween us and was about to cry and he backed off. The difference between being aggressive and being assertive is always important. I remember last yr almost fighting there and going crazy hahaha l remember being insane and l saw Vi and l think l scared her lol oppssaay. But yea, it was just way to many people around the keg that night so we pce. Hit Lambda Chi and not alot of people there at all compared to usual so left there. Didnt even wanna hit TKE as they're anal bout their money and parties blow anyway. Did l mention l stole cups from TKE last yr too hahahahahahha. Hit Joe/Carl/Jim's(AXP) and just party there with all the brothers and the sister's in AST. Just a simple chill party, some beer pong and some dancing. Had a good time just relaxing. Met some people l actually met last yr and never saw around. Its funny how things happen. Just a simple night in the end and its like whatever. Go to Mama's and as usual everyones there and find Ash and Mel and get food and we all head back. Just back and well l was gonna try to study but no way that happening now. Alot of work to do tomm. Studying for Geology and gon work on a history and philosophy paper. Im just gon watch some Bleach and write an email to Steph. Hope shes not to mad at me. If not seeing her is this rough then who knows how it'll be when l do start seeing her more often. Its ridiculous how some people are. I dont understand why you'd start shit with someone you dont know cause shit could really happen if your unlucky. I dont think anyone knows me to well at KU and l kinda dont want them to know either. I was a pretty bad person when l was younger and l'll leave that in the past. Late.
Posted 10/2/2005 at 3:5 AM
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Saturday October 1, 2005
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Sup Guys, lm wasted........... yo all l think bout is dancing and this one girl Steph. Yo my life is just out of control. I dont know if things are going really good or really bad for me its such a fucking blur. So like skip my Geo class but hit the rest and chill. Get food and chill. Play some stradegy games to get my mind active. Head to the 314 girls place and chill and we go out to party. So me and 6 of the 314 girls head to the TKE party, of course it was gay. They see girls and are like 'eww girls, nasty gross they got cooties' and act stupid and they are telling people if they dont buy beer immedietly then you gotta leave. How gay?! Stupid TKE thats why my entire pledge class made jokes bout your joke fraternity. WHAT A JOKE FRATERNITY!! Like honeslty, 1st time l saw a group of them and someone told me they were a fraternity l was shocked like WTFFFFFFFFFFFF they are so retarded looking. Esp this kid Curly(nickname dont know his real name) what a loser. I honestly look down alot on that fraternity. Anyway, we leave there SO FAST. We go to Mama's and meet up with this guy that leads us to the baseball party. That was a good ass party. Im so happy we went. Met up with alot of friends and talked with Suzy and Arielle bout some junk and just chilling there watching people dance guess who just runs over and gives me a nuggy. JENNA ORNFUCKINGDORF!! Haha so me and her are dancing and other people are dancing and it put me in a great mood. Later found Smirnoff Ice and yo l was happy. I love my malt liquor fuck that shit 'its a girl's drink' FUCK YOU l like to enjoy myself and l dont give a shit AT ALL!! lm not gonna get fat off that shit. I burn sugar like its my job. Anyway just this big dancing grinding fest at baseball and met some people. Help some people find there shit and l lose and find my A&F leather cuff braclet, god l was so upset for like 15 mins. Yea just dancing and partying with people and some douche bag wanted to kick me out cause l didnt know anyone that actually lived at the baseball house and he backed off second he tried hitting on all my girl friends. Ass, whatever he was dorky looking, loser who tries to hard. Anyway other shit happened, IM me for the full story if l remember. Heard there was alot of people calling me but who knows who called me so late. My screen is broke so l cant see who l call or who calls me l just press buttons and hope lm doing things right. Walk back and now lm home. Great night. Yo l been thinking alot bout just relationships and dancing and seriously l just dont know anymore. Steph l care bout you alot but its rough just not being able to see you. Not having a car in KU is a killer. I dunno, l hope things work out in the end. As for dancing, its SO FUCKING ANNOYING that if l work hardcore on one thing l LOSE another thing, POWER MOVES lose my TOPROCK/UPROCK/DANCE skills in general. Like seriously dancing around with friends and practice or whatever, l dont dance as good as l did b4 cause of lack of practice cause lm so hardcore power but l need power for crowds. OMFG its so fucking annoying l dont even understand Dom and how he maintains Power/Toprock/Footwork/Poses all at once it pisses me off SO FUCKING MUCH I WANNA FUCKING GET GOOD AND IF I LOSE SHIT WHILE GAINING SHIT IM GOING NO WHERE!!!!!!!!!!1 UGHHHHHHH.... Life is fustrating sometimes, along with dance and girls l gotta worry bout school work. Rough Shit. Late.
Posted 10/1/2005 at 3:15 AM
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