Thursday November 30, 2006
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Sup Guys, odd when l decide that EVERYTHING slightly assholish of me l
do, lm gon stop and just figure out a way to be a good honest guy tho lm
not gon have as much fun, atleast l'll feel clean bout my actions, that
l got screwed over and theres a lot of people that are pissed at me. So wake up at a normal time. Yea l slept at 3am and woke up at 1045am, perfect. Hit class and nothing really happened then got lemonade, orange juice and 4 6packs of propel water. l get thirsty. Got the chinaking and hit my room. Played online and Zig and Riv were playing Gears of War on my Xbox360 and started my study guide for Jew History. Later on, started playing Gears and then went to an event with the fraternity brothers only to find out we got suspended for some junk but haha l dont think the guys cared cause it was boring and everyone was like 'haha oops we cant do it cause we're suspended!!' hahaha great attitude guys. So we hit Battle of the Bands and to see Jordan play. Cheered him on like crazy and we all voted for his band. There wasnt a big turn out at all and A LOT of other people were there to see his band. There were 5 bands together so we're guessing he won. If his band won, they win a $1000 clean. Its good to have fraternity brothers. All day people been asking if we were throwing a party and we said no but SO many people asked l talked with Ziggy and we called Kev to see if we should and we decided to throw. Got kegs and cups and junk and was all ready. At 10pm when the party is gonna start the cd player is busted so l get another plus a good cd of music and get back and the guys decided we shouldnt throw cause some of us couldnt be here cause of fraternity events tonight and others had to study and it'd just be me and Kev maintaining the house and they all just decided not too. l see both views but on a weds night, cops arent out busting parties. We never had ANY ANY problem on a weds night. The money we woulda made woulda been ridiculous too because NOTHING was going on and the only other place in the cliffs that was apparently throwing didnt throw either. l feel like a jerk tho, l texted mad people telling them party at 8pm and then at 1020pm l had to call and junk and tell them nm. People were already at the house, down main st, at mamas and junk and l feel really bad it was me who told them all cause of the house, l tell the most people, l always do. Its just a good time for me and my friends plus money. Of course l'll tell everyone but yea, at 1020pm they decided not to throw and l gotta waste a lot more text msgs and junk and disappoint people. It really sux, like some people said its no big deal that it just sux but atleast they didnt walk out yet but the people that were out, l feel bad. l mean, they were excited right after thanxgiving. So yea, happens just sux l took the hard part of it. Shit happens. So Suzie Emily and Ryan come over to chill and make me feel better. Just drank a lil and talked bout a lot. Mostly parties and this past sem. lm glad they came just to be like hey. Drank and laughed and its always nice having friends over in my room. l love my room. So yea, just been upset bout tonight's dumb luck and dont feel like doing anything but passing out. A few AST girls who just got in are over now. They just got back from the rugby social and apparently they only had one keg. Some are IMing me pammelaaa: i hate rugby guyssss we wish u would having a party so we could hav e gone thereee AwwwWw l know. They are dressed skanked out too. The things they're saying right now.. Jeez. ld repeat it but l dont want to make impressions on them tho we all have been talking bout how AST has been treating us like back up plans for the sem. Well, more people are showing just to chill and junk. We'll see what goes down. Trying to enjoy this night somewhat. Late.
Posted 11/30/2006 at 1:19 AM
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Wednesday November 29, 2006
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Sup Guys, my reckless sleeping habits have made time just a big blur. So last night l stayed out real late and then came back to play Gears of War till 1030am. At 1030am Riv came in to play Gears and l went to bed. Woke up at 430pm, skipped all my classes. Woke up and just more video games and eating food. 6pm hits and picked up Matt for some ping pong and as always, l beat him... over and over again. Charlie came by and chilled and just talked bout a lot junk. Fun time. After that, the 3 of us hit practice in the field house. Just worked on pikes, flares and a lil on footwork. Crashed a few times pretty bad tho on pikes just hitting and holding for as long as l can. l mean its building my time on how long lm up there for but when l crash, its bad. Worst one was straight on my ribs as if l was thrown outta a window. Flares did ok but they are so damn exhausting. Eventually towards the end of practice, worked on round off side flips. The round offs are fine. lm really proud of how well they come along in the last yr. But yea, the side flips were good. l was over flipping actually cause l would just hold the tuck in for too long cause in ALL flips, l always have a habit of releasing my tuck too early and crashing so yea, after l would land and still be tucked, ld roll sideways haha. Anyway, its better to know l can def do it if l can go past it. So worked on landing just right and eventually opened up too early and crashed my left ankle. Twisted a lil and it hurt a lot. l was laughing while crying cause it was just dumb. Good practice tho and got a real good sweat going. lm still tired tho from practice which was 6 hrs ago. After practice, hit my fraternity meeting and talk with the guys for a while. Hit back, get a shower and play a lil video games and got ready for tonight's event. Tonight was hilarious. Every night is ussually but tonight was great. l just remembered this night from 2 yrs ago and wow. Other stuff was funny and lm so glad l got to record it on my digital camera. Bobby and Ziggy had me laughing like nuts!! The quotes of tonight are REEEEEEEDUCKULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!11111111 Like seriously, those 2 cracked so many goofy corny but amazingly funny jokes. Was def because they were fully into it and the delivery, well done guys. Ok ok l will have to quote this. 'Yea your welcome guys, its thanxgiving!! Dear heavenly father, thank you for these pounders' BAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAA HA HAA EGHOWIGHOI$#Wghihgoiejagpi 4gih54o i4ahji5g ij4ahopiajijogea......klllllllkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. K so yea, Rich had me laughing a lot to because he just likes to laugh and will do anything for a laugh. Good to see him and his girl are doing good. Got kinda late and lv just been so tired since practice l think cause lv been such a lazy piece over the last week, lm just winded. Been playing some Gears of War. Gonna get another shower cause they're always fun and go to sleep somewhat early tonight. Like 3ish which is a lot better than 1030am or 215pm which isnt even close to being night time. To a certain friend. Thank you for your help, l really do appreciate it, you know who you are. Late.
Posted 11/29/2006 at 2:16 AM
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Tuesday November 28, 2006
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Sup Guys, haha life is ridiculous. So let me tell you. Didnt sleep last night. Ended up playing Gears of War and studying for the map test all night. Eating Chinaking a lil bit here and there throughout the entire night and early morning. Hahaha that chinaking lasts. At 11 hit my class and did well on my map test at 1. l was so tired tho. Drop my anthro class and went back to chinaking to sleep. Slept from like 2-11pm. GOD it felt amazing. Wake up and ate some more chinaking haha. Go to Turkey hill and buy some burritos and gatorade rain and go to our lil event hahahhahaah. Tonight was fun. Very chilled. Just spending a lot of time with the brothers and not having anything but 4 finals to worry bout. l'll worry bout the finals on like fri. It was seriously just such a funny and relaxing night. Riding around with Dawson and Ziggy place to place, laughing and talking bout Gears of War, cars and girls. Saw some friends at the Airport diner and nice seeing them cause l havent seen them in a while. Later on, ate some more burritos and drank gatorade. Laughed and laughed and seriously, l love my digital camera. The $372 was DEF worth it. Such a slim camera and l can record over an hr and half of video footage and its great quality. Ok ok ok lemme just tell you this. There were a lot of jokes and EVERYONE got teased at one point and they got me so good that l was thinking 'you guys are a bunch of fucking assholes' while laughing at the same time. Pretty much there was a skit done bout me and there was one done bout everyone but for mine they had me drunk and pretended l took a drunk girl into my room and fed her more alc haha. Now the thing is, yea girls sleep over time to time but l really dont have sex with them. Dont get me wrong, sometimes some stuff does happen but honestly ... l just like to cuddle JK JK well l do too but ahh forget it. lm not as bad as l may appear. But yea, they replayed an incident with a video camera that Noel had one night and a bunch of the guys on the roof looking in on me hahahaha wow l tottally forgot bout that night and yea, instead of me doing what would seem likely, they had me combing her hair and petting her AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!111 Yo, l was laughing hard. lt was smart way to tease me that lm not screwing the girls that sleep over. Combing her hair tho hahaha you guys are bunch of douches but l'll give you props. There were some other skits that were hilarious and it really showed us like a tv show full of different unique characters. Laughed hard when they made fun of Ed and Wade the most. Later on, ate more food and just chilled. Almost broke a light over Ziggy's head hahahaha lucky man. Started just calling people that l thought may be up and talked with some people and ate food. Seriously, l feel like such a sloth, all l do is play video games, eat and sleep and all 3 of those l do A LOT A LOT!! Hits 340am and decide its time to shower and junk. So yea lm here, gon shower, eat a lil bit more and sleep. The rest of the week should be entertaining and lm glad to just be able to relax and joke around with the brothers for a week b4 the week of studying right b4 finals. lm really upset that the sememster is coming to a close but it happens. Theres next sem. Watching Jingle All the Way today on HBO which l havent seen since it was in theaters, wow, l realized some things. Just trust me that l know my bad qualities and l always knew what l had to change just change is hard but lm really gonna change something bout me that use to be me when l was like 15. Growing up just made me bad tho l matured a lot and changed all that childish bad stuff from b4, l dunno. l guess its growing up. lm almost 21 now. l shouldnt be an asshole ever. Late.
Posted 11/28/2006 at 4:18 AM
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Monday November 27, 2006
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Sup Guys, hahaha life is great. Tons of douchebags to laugh at. So wake up at 4pm and start studying for the map quiz l have tomm and playing Gears of War inbetween. Met a couple from Florida who was on my team and they were mad cool. That must be sweet to play video games with the girlfriend you live with in the same home and then go out to the movies and do adult things after. By adult things l mean raw sex. So that was pretty much my entire day. Later on get some chinaking. Actually a lot of chinaking, $17.90 of chinaking haha. lm gon be staying up all night since l woke up so late and if l sleep now, well l cant sleep now but even if l could, l wouldnt wake up in time for class and this way l can study more. Hit the lil event with the pledges at like 1240 with the housemates in AXP and met up with some of the other brothers and tonight was really funny. Like l laughed A LOT!! Ahhh, seriously, if you like laughing alone, pledge a fraternity. Pledging and watching pledging is just one big comedy show. Grabbed some propel water black cherry, my cheese wontons and a shrimp eggroll and ate and laughed. These events are like a private show of entertainment. Too bad you will never know but trust me, its a good time. Hit back and now Riv is playing Gears of War while lm studying. We're prob gon go back in a lil and watch some laughs, eat some ramen and drink mo water. Its a really nice night. Life is SO RELAXING here in Kutztown lm really upset break is right around the corner. lm sure l'll be dropping by my place time to time just to chill for a few days if l really need to get away from everything but we'll see. lf theres people to chill with, that will be fun. Seriously lm in love with european dance music. The mixes l listen to on Fushion Chicago Radio in the Electronica section of ITunes plays the EXACT songs and versions they always play at Abercrombie&Fitch and when l went home to visit, they were playing songs that were on my cds. l dunno, l think its cause the songs have really good interesting lyrics that are seriously nearly ALWAYS really positive along with them having a nice fast solid beat to them so if l ever drift into thinking bout or actually dancing, l can do that too. Like seriously, how can you be sad when you're listening to some of these songs. My fav tho right now is 'Lucky' by Lucky twice. Song is simple, saying tho theres shit in your life and some stuff cant be helped no matter what you do, if you tell yourself that things are gonna be ok, it'll def help. Its just real, that can be applied to a lot. Doing my best to fix things between people. Just seems like the older l grow, the more longer term problems lm making and yea, sometimes bad things happen and one incident will ruin something long term and its upsetting but though it may sound bad, lm getting use to just realizing, not everything will be perfect and not all my plans will work exactly how l plan. lv always had a bad habit in chess planning out more than 3 steps ahead which is the big majority of the time USELESS cause the opponent will do something you didnt predict and ruin everything but the few times things worked out exactly how l planned and the whole night was planned, yo l felt smart. l dunno, lm just rambling now but overall lm feeling good bout everything. lm def excited for the future. Prob going back to visit the fraternity bros and pledge to chill for a lil. Late.
Posted 11/27/2006 at 3:20 AM
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Sunday November 26, 2006
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Sup Guys, l think the cold weather makes me sleepy. So last night from like 7pm-6am l worked on my paper. That entire time, Ziggy was playing Gears of War next to me haha. It made the paper go mad slow. So yea, eventually hit the bed and wake up to Ziggy asking me if l want food and its 3pm but it felt like l got 2 hrs of sleep. OMG was l hurting. Wake up again later at 4pm and start right back on that fucking ass paper. Finished it. Riv helped skew it around a lil so it'd look a lil bigger by chopping off margin ends and crap. Finished the presentation for it and its gon be mad shitty. lm gon just briefly go over the paper and print out some pics from it. The map l'll start tomm. It really sux that when l wake up for sunday lm gon have to plant all the shit places on this map and its ancient world so its not like l studied this b4 and then after l plant all that shit, l gotta memorize it cause the test is mon along with the paper due and presentation ready. GaaAaa cool prof but why assign everything to be due the monday after thanxgiving break. Later on l was suppose to go to Dawson's gf's place to meet up with Dawson and his girl along with Riv and Ziggy. People came over to drink for a lil and we thought we'd hit thanxgiving dinner fine. Well.... Meg and her 3 friends came along with KateA and started playing drinking games. Beer pong, up and down the river, fuck the dealer. Yea, we got a lil too hammered to go over. l feel bad but we're going tomm during lunch. My arm is in a lot more pain than l realized from practice a few days ago. Playing beer pong, raising my arm straight forward just hurt then bending it back and pointing the elbow up, it HURT!! So started shooting left handed and made the 1st 2 left handed shots in!! Wo0t!! So yea, now my stomach hurts from the mix of liquors and diff beer we had. God the beer was so cold. Too cold actually. Now gon play some Gears finally. l deserve it. Late.
Posted 11/26/2006 at 1:10 AM
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Saturday November 25, 2006
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Sup Guys, my body just aches. Bad. Wake up at l was just hurting. Dom had to start work at Circuit City at 4am for black friday and l just slept. Later on visit home to see my lil sister Allison and that was nice to see her. Chill in my room for a lil and rest up. Visit Brown and return him Dead Rising for the XBOX360. Talked for a while mostly bout video games for close to half an hr outside his house. After, hit my gamestop, reserved Halo3 for next yr and got gas and hit back to KU. So since then, lv been talking online, playing on facebook and working on a paper. Wanna see how much l wrote in 5 hrs? 'The news of the T4 pogrom spread rapidly as too many people were involved in the program. Many of these had family and friends who would be killed in the T4 pogrom and did many things to avoid their loved ones to be killed. The more wealthy families would pull their family members out of asylums and hospitals and care for them back at their homes. Along with that, T4 was for the common public hospitals for the middle class so many wealthy people would transfer family members to privatized clinics where T4 was not enforced. Many doctors also saved their patients that they cared for by diagnosing them for a second time to change their illness or condition. Changing their illness or condition, many patients were not included into the T4 program and had their lives saved by their doctors. A doctor named Hans Gerhard Creutzfeldt was so good, he nearly saved the life of every single patient, only to lose a few who were too far gone' <- 5 HOURS OF WORK!!!!!!11111111 Talk bout procrasination. Ziggy has been playing Gears of War which has taken anyway many lives in general. Its freezing in my house and the heat doesnt seem to be working. Wishing l had a girlfriend times like these. Friday night with no parties and its cold... Yep def need a girlfriend. Along with cold friday nights, you got them rainy sundays that are always boring. Well Gears seems to be stalling me fine for now. Lately, l dunno, everyones all been so mature and junk lately its kinda pissing me off. Whatever happened to 'young and stupid'?! Everyones in such a rush to grow up its so dumb. Its not good to miss out on your age. Seriously its just REALLY dumb, when you're 21, you're 21, when you're not then you're not. Girls that are 19 dating dudes that are 30. No, you're suppose to have poor drunk fun with other people within a 4 yr radius of your age. Makes me so mad when people throw away experiences for other experiences they will def encounter later in life. When you're 25, date a dude thats 30, when you're 29, date a dude thats 30, not when you're 19 fool!! Poor dumb fun, yea money you can do a lot but its what you do when you dont got money is whats important. If you cant have fun without money, you got problems. Right now our heat is busted and lm using my hairdryer to warm me up by having it on full blast hot air in my sweater. l look stupid but you know, l enjoy it. Everyone just doesnt seem to take jokes the same way. What was 'hahaha yo you're crazy, that hilarious' has turned into 'umm what are you talking bout'. STFU douche. l still love all my close friends but the side people we'd chill with time to time and junk, l dunno. Meeting new people is fun. Late.
Posted 11/25/2006 at 12:43 AM
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Friday November 24, 2006
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Sup Guys, been a nice few lazy days. Wake up in pain. My right shoulder is busted. lm sure l slept on it funny and plus working on pikes last night and crashing, lm sure that was part of it. lm scared time to time when going for a diff pike variation if lm gon snap my right arm somehow and yea, sometimes l land on it mad bent up. So yea, just played video games for a while and watched some tv. Talked bout junk and ATE TURKEY!!!!! Mashpotatoes and stuffing were my friends tonight too. Yo seriously, the pilgrams knew how to eat. But overall, Stuffing is amazing. l think lm gon drive to Boston Market more often. Corn... Mashpotatoes.... Sweet potatoes.... Macoroni and Cheese. lm hungry again. Watched a lot of A&E today bout different murders and serial killers. Sudden death, honestly, that sux. Its weird cause we never think we're gonna die anytime soon but you never know. Theres still A LOT l need to do b4 l die. No one better try to kill me. Lou and TJ drop by and play video games too haha. Video games are fun. After saw that Tenacious D movie, didnt really want to but Dom did so l went since l did just live at his place since tues. It was ok, some parts were good but mostly, it was just ok. Jack Black just isnt THAT funny. He tries too hard must the time is his problem but whatever, l laughed a few times. Hit back and now Dom passed out as he has to work at Circuit City at 4am for black friday and lm just watching more shit on murders and crap and A&E. Nut stuff for real. People are ridiculous, l say it all the time. Right now lm kinda dazed bout everything. Still feelings like lm missing meaning in my life, not trying to be emo hurr but its like, what am l doing?! Atleast lm doing college right. As in, lm not failing out and experiencing everything to experience in college. Just feels like when lm gonna die, no one is gonna really care and l'll be easily forgotten soon enough. Most people are but l dunno. My reputation in general just seems to be fading. lm not feeling the crazy love l use to. l feel too plain and its kinda boring. Well, got On the Border with Cait Andrea and Stacey tomm then Club Flow with them and some of their other girl friends later that night. Sat and sun is straight up school work all day. Its gonna suck. Late.
Posted 11/24/2006 at 3:21 AM
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Thursday November 23, 2006
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Sup Guys, Dom being sleepy all the time is making me sleepy. So wake up and me and Dom meet up with Brown at the Oxford Valley Mall to eat. Got Wendy's and hit up HCO and A&F to see friends and said yo to the ones that l saw. Saw A LOT of friends actually at the mall today. It was kinda weird, felt like 9th grade when EVERYONE would be at the mall. But yea, good seeing a lot of friends and Wendy's always makes me happy. Esp 15 chicken nuggets and a large frosty, l mean.. cmon. So after, hit back and played some Gears of War online together against people. So WE HAD THE STOOOPIDEST SHITS on our team today. Like wow, you are ridiculously retarded, please run around and distract the enemy and stay alive as we flank and kill them. Seriously, ALL our teammates were useful for was for bothering the enemy and stalling them as they played like the biggest bitches lv ever seen. Me and Dom were getting so mad. Eventually it was me and Dom vs 4 cause our teammates kept dying and werent getting any kills and left. So yea, me and Dom vs 4 people, STILL WRECKED SHIT!! Hahaha l know l write more bout this game than my actual life now but yo, me and Dom were going nuts. Later on, the enemy caught on to what we were doing and they were playing smart, ended as 18 wins 18 loses and the final game we played mad safe. We picked off the guys 1 by 1 as they approached us and we screamed when we won. We were so happy. After played some Guitar hero and that game is mad cool as its just like DDR and Beatmania just a guitar. It was well made. Watch some of the BC ONE BBoy event held by Red Bull and it was cool to see Moy in the top 16 competitors. Its crazy we chilled with him, Ivan and all of Havikoro way back at an event. l was just new to dancing too when we all chilled and hit up l believe it was 2nd degree burn. Its great to see hes still dancing and hes always been well known but to be considered top 16 in the world, that is amazing. Battling people from around the world, thats nuts. l hope to just be well known around the East Coast while Dom is known in other countries, its a rough path to follow. So yea, we hit practice and that was fun. Worked on headspins 1st from standing, l can get a full one and catch it sometimes but re-whipping is rough. Worked on other power moves and comboing stuff but no improvement today.. sux. Worked on some older poses l havent been practicing much and a bit ago l wasn't sticking them for too long but l got them back to normal now. My lower back feels mad bent up tho and my ribs in general took a lil beating from crashing flying around upside down all the time. Me and Dom hit back and played some video games but hes sleepy and went to bed. lv been eating A LOT of spagetti and gon make some more tho lm full, its just soo0o good. lm prob gon buy more spagetti for my room at college now too. lts good shit. So yea, been playing on facebook and myspace and keeping music up from youtube and watching some people krump hahaha the fools. l cant believe theres a word for it. All it is, is getting all rowdy rowdy with your homies to nut music thats hype, example, l'll spaz out, shake the car and dance for long periods of time when l hear baltimore club playing on Power 99 or some junk. l dont refer to it as dancing, l find it fun to act like a douche. Never would l take myself serious to that. But l guess whats a joke to me is other people's lifestyle..... HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Well trying to chill with some girls and some girls are mad for not calling and friends or girls lm macking on, its too much of a blur to even think. The females are such a distraction, seriously. l could get SO MUCH MORE WORK DONE if l just had a gf and wouldnt worry bout whats goin on with who and trying to make time to call and date people. Till then, going out to eat and getting to know people at parties and junk is fun. Having Thanxgiving with Dom's family since my mom pissed me off too much for me to even go home and tolerate her. Seriously, everytime l talk with her, l get really angry and l just cant take the anger side of me right now. So eating turkey with my friends family who are like family to me anyway. l do miss my lil sister Allison tho. l hope she understands. Late.
Posted 11/23/2006 at 3:39 AM
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Wednesday November 22, 2006
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Sup Guys, god lm sleepy. Woke up and hit class. Zig and Riv were playing Gears in my room all day. Got back and just worked on a paper for a while. My mom called a few times and she prob just wanted to see if shes still got skills at pissing me off. She didnt lose'em and now, fuck going home for thanxgiving break. Talk to Dom and he said l could sleep over there next few nights so packed my shit and went to Dom's. We hit up Ryan's studio for practice and great practicing with all the guys. Joking around a lil and l laughed hard. Felt good to be able to crash and not worry bout hurting myself but l kinda went overboard and practiced headspins a lil too confidently and now my ribs ache. l like the whole dragging one hand with on the headspins tho, its easier and looks better. lm gon practice them more like that. l think it helps keep balance too as l have a better perception where lm at. After practice, hit walgreens so l got $6 worth of speggetti, ate 2 of the 6 cans already. Played some Gears side by side as l brought my tv and xbox360 to Dom's and been cheeeeeeeeeating a lil but l dont curr, we're good anyway. No one was joining up tho really, l guess it is late tho and everyone is on break doing other shit. Well tomm, not sure what the plan is but lm sure l'll have fun. Oh, well dance practice at night of course but besides that, who knows. Late.
Posted 11/22/2006 at 3:12 AM
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Tuesday November 21, 2006
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Sup Guys, mondays are like my main fun days now. Good shit indeed. So wake up and hit all my classes. Good stuff l know, didnt miss much but just felt good to be there cause, l should be. Hit back, got some Weis up to mix drinks, got some more Propel water, got Chinaking and chilled in my room. Worked on my research paper and lm just gon wing it. 10 pages, wrote 2 pages today. Just extended things l read in a short period of time. Hits 6 and l get Matt so we play some pool for a lil. We both won a game each, did the rockclimbing wall then hit the men's bball game. So climb through the window to wear the dance team was chilling at and just talked with the dance team for a while. Got our seats and watched some of the game. Talked with Ali who was cheering and then got food. Saw Lindsey who graduated last yr who was on the dance team with me and got to talk to her for a while. Great seeing her seriously. Its crazy she teaches 7th grade now. l have a good friend whos a real full time teacher. Nuts. But lm really happy Lindsey is making it in the real world 1st yr outta college. Seriously it was great seeing her after all the fun times last yr on the team. Chip was the mascot tonight and told Matt he'd mess with him and stuff and when he was throwing out shirts and tried throwing it to Matt. Well fell short and Mandi, a cheerleader we're friends with through Ali caught it. Chip in the Avalance mascot costume waves for the shirt back, she gives it back and he lobs it over her head to Matt and we laughed so hard but she took it back. So yea, half time the girls performed and great work seriously!! They were together and Jenna had a really great dance that at some parts were like 'l hope the school doesnt yell at them for being to scandalous' cause there were some hot moves that may be too dirty, well not THAT dirty but the school may be corny and say something. l hope not. Went over and talked with the girls at their seats and let them watch the video and invited them over to drink. So yea, after the game was over, watched the dance on the tv with the girls and hit back. Dropped off Matt, picked up Andrea Cait and Stacey and got a shower. Got Matt and Ali later on and then Tanya and Danielle came over and made them my drink, blue wave, lemonade and weis up(7 up). They gave me a lot of props how its the perfect drink and Ali told me the night we went to Banana Joes with the other cheerleaders, Mandi said though she doesnt drink much, if she had my drink, she'd always be drinking at parties. Hahaha thank you Mandi. Worked on my video and they jumped in some. l cant wait for my video to finish but its really fun to make and all. lm only half way done tho. So yea, went nuts, played beer pong and it was a simple party of like 20 people or so. Lately, lm all bout get togethers, had PLENTY of big ass redic parties. Time to enjoy myself with the close ones. So yea, great night and then ended with getting Mamas with Matt and Ali. Later on, gave Andrea and Cait a ride and got Sheetz. Took us 30 mins to get food but someone ordered 3 bags of sheetz and left so we stole a lot of it. 4 things of chicken tenders. Passed some off to good friends as there were a lot of friends at sheetz. Got the food and hit back. Now lm back, watching thing on Gears of War and working on the video. Late.
Posted 11/21/2006 at 3:43 AM
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Monday November 20, 2006
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Sup Guys, today has been mad short cause of all the sleep. So wake up at 3pm to Zig asking if l wanted to get food. Food, Girls, Sleep <- my guilty pleasures. So since l been sleeping for a good 9hrs, l could use some food. Last night l searched the fuck outta 2 dance songs that lv been obsessing bout and found CDs they were on of just dance mixes in general and torrented the cds just for these 2 songs. But yea, me and Zig got Stromboli's from Sal's. For $8 its a monster and it counted as 2 meals. Ate it while watching 2 documented shows on UFOs on the History Channel then at 6pm l went back to sleep till 9. Woke up later to finish eating the stromboli and played on the comp. Ziggy was in my room playing Gears of War and Halo 2 with Dawson. l didnt even feel like playing it today, lv just been so exhausted today. Decided to make a music video. Didnt finish it but started it. Took A LOT of pics and its like 134 pics as lm making a picture movie rather than just recording. Theres a lot of simple dumb fun to do with picture movies as editing photos and junk can make things look unreal. Already lm jumping into my pants, my clothes and food flies into my hands, l can make doors open and people disappear and l dunno, when its done, it'll be a fun video. Robin calls Ziggy and said she thinks theres people in their house so me Ziggy Peterson and Matt all run over. Peterson brought an axe and l brought my big knife haha. No one was there but they were positive someone was in the house and prob left after the call. Other guys came too to look for the people as they got calls too to come help. The girls were thankful tho and we pced back. The rest of everyone in our house came to see what was up. So yea, walking back there was 11 us just laughing. Get back and continue working on the picture video. Downloading Vegas Video 6.0 cause l cant find 7.0. Now lm watching more junk on the History Channel and prob gon sleep in a lil. Late.
Posted 11/20/2006 at 2:2 AM
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Sunday November 19, 2006
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Sup Guys, what a full day l had. Last night after the party, the alarm went off at 4am and we all went to Steph's till things settled down. Cait and Crystal crashed in my room and we all woke up around 1030 today. They pced out and said bye to them. Got changed and hit the South Dinning hall jumping this ridiculous unstable gate cutting my hand a lil to dance for the big brother big sister organization. So me and the Ku Breakers danced for them then chilled with the kids. We broke up into groups and made up dances for the kids to battle each other with and as corny as it seemed at 1st, it ended up being REALLY fun. So yea, made up this dumb dance where me and the guys do the robot 1st, slide out, girls jump in and we all do the 'snap yo fingaz' dance which is really just snapping on beat but with style, then it came to the rubbing hands clap and then the elephant to some move l learned from Black Flames dance team my freshmen yr ending with the last 3 parts of the macarina. Ask me for the video. Ate and talked with the kids and signed autographs. Some kids were really into it and maybe we started some future dancers. Even if we just got one kid really into dancing than he would be if we never were there, thats a lot. Did the electric slide with them and recorded that and yea, l screwed up a lot and its all on file. After me and Matt got Burger King and talked bout girls and dancing. Hit the girl's basketball game to chill and Matt's girlfriend Ali was cheering so we also went to see her. Talked with Ali time she had to chill inbetween cheering and took a pic with Avalanche the mascot. Pce back and do school work and play a lil Gears of War but not too much. Got chinaking and watched Naruto. AST pledges got in tonight so had a party for them. Played lots of beer pong and Zig made mix drinks for some of the girls since he is the Alpha Iota pledge class' sweetheart. Simple night with just bros and sisters. Seriously, lately, l dont mind that at all. Just drinking with close friends. There were some close friends too that were here tonight that we just love and are pretty much brother and sister to me. Stuck with beer tonight ahhaa. Just liquor can not be fun sometimes. At 130am people started pcing but Julie and Erin stayed with me and Zig and the 4 of us ended up talking till 330ish or so. Just bout the past when me and Zig pledged and how things changed and then talked bout childhood and junk and bout my xanga haha. We looked back to last yr and the AST pledges then just got in 2 days ago from today and the Mr. KU event was a day off from being exactly a year ago. Dropped off the girls tho and me and Zig got Sheetz and hit back to watch Ocean's Twelve while eating. Just finished up eating and gon sleep. Lifes good and its nice having a lot of plans. Whatever doesnt work out doesnt even matter cause thats just free time to find other things to do. In a really good mood. Seriously, trance and dance music is a big factor to being happy. All upbeat and positive, how could you be sad?! Late.
Posted 11/19/2006 at 4:31 AM
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Saturday November 18, 2006
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Sup Guys, last 2 weeks been redic. l gotta be stupid cause lm always confused. Wake up and realize lm late for class. Skipped all my classes again. So yea, of the 13 classes l was suppose to attend to, l made it to 4. Really bad l know. So wake up later, eat chinaking and play Gears with Dawson. Played for a long long time haha owned people. Felt great, best feeling of the day sadly. So yea, Cait texts to see if l would like visitors. To see Cait, def. So she came along with her roomate Crystal. Introduced them to a lot of my fraternity bros and friends and lm glad everyone got along real well. We had a date social where we got to have 2 dates so that worked out. Played some beer pong and me and Cait did pretty good winning 3 games esp shes really new to playing beer pong. Got mixed drinks, some were great, some blew ass. Jager shots still suck. l think lm down with Jager forever. Some shit happened that pissed me off and l dunno, respect is just so important to me seriously. l dunno, l think lm so use to having so much respect sometimes that some disrespect drives me mad. l still HATE the whole nice guy part of me. Forcing out smiles but l hate telling people lm upset. lm not that person that has problems. l dunno, lm just confused what lm supposed to do sometimes. l try to be the best friend to every one of my friends but l think everyones so use to me being that guy to help out, that thanking me is just unneccesary and then its like, if lm not there to help out, to be used, then lm an asshole. So either way l lose. l think l should be more strict with who l talk to, who lm nice to and who l chill with. In the end, lm just upset bout stuff that l brought to myself and it really sux that the problems lm having are all around just junk with friends and stuff and l dont even know who to blame so l see it as my own fault. lm just honestly really upset right now and l guess l wish l knew people better than l thought l knew them. Drinking with people can be completly different with some people. Its weird as much as l love partying and drinking and being around mass amounts of my friends, l kinda wish l was in 7th grade, hitting up the mall, buying dumb junk and watching movies and playing 2 player campaign games with friends. Party is still going on but lm not in the mood anymore. Thanxgiving break is close but lm looking forward to xmas break. To enjoy sometime to myself and be around people l can really relax with. Promised some people ld chill with them thanxgiving break and lm having second thoughts. Life is crazy seriously. Everyday l change my mind bout something lm so set on. l hate wasting my time and its sad that honestly, l didnt accomplish anything in my life and lm 20 yrs old. l feel like such a waste and l hate it. l dunno whats up with my mood but the perfect day streak ended. Happens tho ya know. 13 days was pretty good besides feeling guilty bout missing class but its ok. Having 13 good days and 1 bad day is worth it. Just what sux is after having 13 good days and being so use to enjoying myself, the 1 bad day really hurts. It will pass. Thank you to some of my friends tho. lm so confused how l help people so much, how some people use me and how some people help me and theres no balance to it, its just upsettting. But yea, to certain friends, long run, thank you guys. Keeps me from going insane. Late.
Posted 11/18/2006 at 2:11 AM
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Friday November 17, 2006
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Sup Guys, seriously, no lie, no question, l have the best life anyone could ever have. Eat Sleep Play Wake up and hit my classes. YeaAa l went to both of them too and didnt sleep. Wow right?! Wow indeed. So got jello and chinaking and hit back and watched Skip and Noel play Madden 07 as l watched Bleach(great anime) as l ate chinaking and had the new members make jelloshots, thank you guys. Did a food drive thing for thanxgiving with the brothers and it felt really good. Just helped move stuff around, threw boxes off an edge and put tissue boxes up on a shelf. It was nice helping families have a better thanxgiving. Hey, me and my family were there. We were def there when l was lil. There as in poor, not at that actual food drive. We never did a food drive but trust me, we've always had help and still now, lm on finacial aid. Honestly, its no big deal at all and even if you stay there, as long as you're with the ones you care about, its not too bad at all. Money like everything else, too much causes problems. Seriously, living like a bum in Chinaking with my fraternity bros and friends is amazing and yea, our house is trashed all the time and we live in garbage and we feel bad for which ever girls sleep over on our hard futons and stinky rooms but yo, its so fun. So yea, money is bullshit. Saw some friends there too helping out, not sure if it was solely volunteer work or if they were part of an organization filling community service too but it was nice seeing them. Hit back and got ready for practice. That was great, seriously, good practice. Worked on 3 different types of Pikes and may change around my 2nd fav insted of a simple left hand to left foot thread to figure 4, its still left hand to left food but insted of figure 4 normal, lm gon straighten my right leg to the right and really reach across with my left arm going across my body. Look wise, it looks A LOT nicer but it is a lot harder but would so be worth it when l finish it. Talked with the guys, joked around and chilled. Hit back and it was raining SOOO BAD so we decided not to throw a crazy party and have byob to keep it simple since like no one was coming anyway. So yea, Matt came, made him some of my mix drink and he met A LOT of my fraternity bros and friends and all the guys kinda knew him from the Mr. KU event from dancing and gave him a lot of props. So yea, seriously l love watching my friends become friends with my other friends. Its really puts me in a GREAT MOOD to see my friends become friends with my other friends just because for whatever l do, its not weird inviting any of my friends out to eat, to the movies, to a party, ya know?! Seriously, Dawson from my fraternity is becoming mad cool with all my friends from home on Xbox live from Gears, they even play together without me they're so cool together. So yea, played drinking card games a lot. Connections, fuck the dealer and kings. Got really drunk. Went NUTS when 'Du Hast' came on and all the other guys wildnout with me got me even crazier like l lost my mind no joke. Air guitar, stomping and jumping on beat, led zepplin fingers and head bashing with my tongue out. Partied with close friends and it was a real simple night. Didnt sell jelloshots. Just had a great night and seriously, yea, l do miss BIG parties and making money and seeing a lot of friends and making new friends but l LOVE chill nights too to just seriously, enjoy my time with my close friends. Andrea Cait and Stacey were with us tonight along with some AST girls. Great night seriously. Now lm playing with Dawson and Dom on gears and we're laughing so much at people. Havent lost a match yet. Seriously we are LAUGHING SO FUCKING HARD!! Ok besides winning all the time, just to make people angry, we talk so much shit hahahaha and yo, one guy got really offensive b4 we said anything to him. So yea, insted of killing him, we took him down and all stood around and put smoke grenades on him. Then we just shot around him while he was down and just laughed so hard. We got SO FUCKING COCKY we all decided to run up to the enemy and sticky smoke grenades on them and run away just to prove we can get that close to them, hit them and leave without dying and it was HILARIOUS watching the enemy chase us as they are trying to kill us. Whitewidow is back hahaha l cant wait to kill him some more. Another guy is like 'whos good' and l been saying lm new and l just got the game and l dont know how to go to grenades and then he says 'ITS UP ON D PAD!!' and we're like 'DID YOU NOT SEE THE SMOKES WE STUCK ON YOU DOUCHE!!'. Now hes with us again against us and we won 6-0 so far. SO MANY FUCKING QUOTES RIGHT NOW HAHAHAHAHAHHA!! Ok we won 11-0 so far. ROBIN JENNIFER MARTIN IS MY LITTLE SISTER. SHE IS A SEXY MUTHA. DONT HATE. K BYE. (<- my lil sis in AST Robin wrote that) LAUGHING SO HARD!! GREAT LIFE!! LATE!!
Posted 11/17/2006 at 4:9 AM
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Thursday November 16, 2006
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Sup Guys, ever wonder if you enjoy life too much?! l do. So wake up and decide, lets skip class, so back to bed till l woke up later on and Riv and Zig came in to play Gears of War online for a while. Got up and got my haircut with Zig and then got stuff for jelloshots and mix drinks for tonight's party. We got some chinese food and hit back. Made jelloshots and crap, ate chinese food, watched anime and played videos. l am so stereotypical azn but its cool, theres a reason l eat chinese food and play a lot of video games, its fun. The guys decided, we should lose some rounds so people dont quit and then kill them. Since we've been playing ranked games.... WE HAVE NOT LOST ONE FULL MATCH YET!! We always put it to 1st to 10 rounds won or sometimes 12 or 19 and seriously, WE ALWAYS HIT THE 10, 12 or 19 b4 the other team. WE NEVER LOST!! l think besides all of us being pretty good, like l presume ALL the time that on and 1v1 that my friend will win but the team work between us is just really good and the guys we face on the other 4 are all random guys and dont get along as quick or already have a set plan down. Seriously, we're amazing. So bunch of brothers came to chill, laughed a lot with Domkey Hackney and Dawson on Gears and Kristen called for a lil and it was a weird feeling from how things use to be to how things are now, l dunno, lm glad she called. So the guys went to get the keg but there was only 1 left and we were FUCKED!! So we had to limit the people we let in. l felt bad and yea, some good friends were dicked over. lm glad for everyone who did get in tho and seriously for 1 keg and the amount of people, we all got pretty drunk. Me and Riv didnt really do the jelloshots but we sold some and cut people real good deals cause they were real close friends. Didnt even make our money back but its cool, no one did but we had a really really good party. Like a good party that wasnt overpacked but simple and l dunno, l really did like it and we really had no parties that were this simple. Yea of course, we love money but every now and then its cool to not make money to have a really good time with friends. Got some lapdances and some girls were a lot more impressive than l realized, like esp for how long lv known them. Traded backmassages with some friends and chugged several times with bros. My body feels mad good, trust me. Other funny things happened and trust me, l was entertained tonight. Good having entertaining friends. l seriously feel like a king with a bunch of fools l call friends. But yea, now lm mad sleepy. Me and Zig dropped off Kate and got turkey hill, THE BOMB burritos and now... Sleep. l forgot where l heard this from but its one of my favorite quotes 'If it didnt end the way you wanted... it didnt really end' <- so true. Confidence is amazing. Confidence - Trust or faith in a person or thing. Late.
Posted 11/16/2006 at 3:5 AM
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Wednesday November 15, 2006
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Sup Guys, my body hates me. Wake up and hit class. 2 weeks ago when l tried studying for a test while a party was going on and eventually studied and slept at Amanda's, well l got a 53%.. Fuckkk. So yea, was let out early and l really didnt want to wait 20 mins till my medieval philosophy class that l was gonna prob sleep in anyway. So yea, skip that and hit back and got Chinaking. Played a lot of Gears again with the guys and finished my paper finally!! Ontop that, l cut the 10page paper to a 6 page paper for Medieval Philosophy. 2 birds with 1 stone. Whoever came up with that phase is mean tho, taking out 2 birds tho with a stone, like way to be an asshole. So yea, hit Mr.KU that was held by the AST girls, KatieM ran it this time and it was huge. She was also the one to escort me last time, when l entered it last yr with Matt. Me and Matt just danced at the intermission for a while with the Ku Breakers and while walking up to dance, all the AST girls and all the AXP guys were just saying 'YeaaAa Zang!!' hahahahaha, they hyped me up. Did well but danced a lil thought l had more time. Later took my seat and my friend Sam in AST who lv been friends with since l pledged AXP and she was pledging AST at the time, well, she got preposed to tonight by the guys shes been with for a long time who also was Mr. KU last yr. It was nuts and l never seen anyone get preposed to b4. lm really happy for them and Sam is very happy. Had a quick fraternity meeting then went to the event tonight. Got 24 cheese wontons b4 heading and MmmmMmMmm!! They are so good. So yea, watched and laughed and LAUGHED A LOT!! Just the hidding from 'stuff' and hahaha only if you were there. Hit back and now lm on Gears of War till prob 4am with Dom in ranked matches now we're prepared. Over 2:1 ratio as in 2 kills for every death. Late.
Posted 11/15/2006 at 2:13 AM
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Tuesday November 14, 2006
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Sup Guys, lv devoted myself to the game Gears of War. Seriously, its been a ridiculous 8 days that lm just happy. My cheeks hurt. So l didnt actually sleep last night. Played Gears of War till 430am with Dom and watched the collector's dvd and its not too bad cept one part with the lil kids. God that was cheesy. Anyway, ended up beating the game on hardcore difficulty and then working on my paper a bit more. Hit class at 11am and that was fine but he let us out at 1135 and l got sleepy so l skipped my 2nd and 3rd class to sleep. l feel REALLY bad bout skipping, trust me. Meh.. Its for my sanity. Woke up at 430 to Brown telling me he got Gears through a text and started playing with him Dom Hackney Quigly and Dawson. God we fucking hurt people. Like seriously, if theres a God, he should stop my mayhem hahahahahah. So yea, later on pledges from another sor. came over and chilled and played some flip cup. Socialized and joked around and Courtney is gonna get egged b4 the week is over.. hoe. Anyway, back to play and working on my paper at the same time. Got some chinaking left and gon chow on that. On the ranked servers lm coming in 1st place of 8 EVERYTIME and its god damn great. Well gonna get back to play with Dom and Dawson. Some quotes and pics from the night. My name is ZangerGB4 but its crossed through cause l committed suicide planting G-nades on fools. 33kills 11 downs 840 points. 2nd place was 13 kills 7 downs 360 points. Thats how far ahead of everyone l am..   Brown: Friendly fire on? Dom: No no haha why? Brown: Good cause l just shot the shit outta you Me: Fat lube is hackey, the fataluber guy :Dom getting chainsawed: Me:l cant believe he just chainsawed all of us :Dom dies: Dom: l cant believe he just chainsawed all of us Me: Brown what happened to you Brown: l dunno l turned around and my head was on the ground :Dom downed: Me: Dom you aiight? :Dom killed: Brown Dawson: No hahahaha Me: Yo Dawson you stole my kill Dawson: Just being black, stealing kills stealing money Ali Lance05: What do you do after raping a deaf, dumb and blind girl? Ali Lance05: Break her fingers so she can't tell anyone. :Me and Dom both stick a g-nade on a guy and it blows up and kills him: Me: l am rubber you are glue Dom: lma stick a g-nade on you Us: HAHAHAHHAHAHA!! Me: Hahaha seriously, sorry for my cockyness but when you're this good, you cant help but to talk shit Dom: God Zang l hope you die Me: Oh shit lm fighting 2 guys with shotty Dom: GOOD!! Prove how good you are Zang :l kill them both: Me: Got'em Dom and Dawson: HAHAHAHAHAHHA!! WHOAAAAAA ITS THE COLE TRAIN BABY!! LATE!!
Posted 11/14/2006 at 2:33 AM
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Monday November 13, 2006
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Sup Guys, lm a good guy right?! Riiiiiiight?! So yea, ended up playing Gears of War with Dom till 7am HAHAHAHAHAH fuck, lm so screwed for class. We were having so much fun like the old rainbow six 3 days. These guys were talking spanish or some shit and we kept responding saying shit like 'no l didnt have sex with your sister' 'you pooped in the refridgerator?' 'Yo they're REAL LOCUST!!' 'Special Guests on Emergence day, REAL LOCUSTS!!' HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!! Yo me and Dom couldnt stop laughing. l even cried a lil. Locusts are the creatures in the game you fight against who come from the ground incase you were wondering. Wow seriously so much fun. So woke up at 3pm something and convienced Brown to get it soon. l cant wait till hes on. Seriously just played all day. Took some breaks to work on my paper and played some more. Ate chinaking and watched some Bleach and talked with people online and played a lil on facebook. Now lm gon eat chinaking again and watch more bleach then work on the paper then more Gears of War. Life got simple - Chinese food, school work, video games. As for everything else, l am hyped for thanxgiving break to see my friends. Gon end up in my room alone playing Gears of War with them online, lm not even gonna see them haha but no, we'll be getting lunch and chilling with girls. l know l'll be at a few practices with the boys of BeatWhakz and it'll just be nice to see a bunch of friends but no rush if l dont see everyone on thanxgiving break. Xmas break is real close. Tho lm hyped for it, l wanna just chill at KU. l dunno, we'll see what l do. Also we're prob gon start having parties again this week. l hope so. The last 2 weeks hitting up other places has been fun but its time to make money and get drunk in my own house. Late.
Posted 11/13/2006 at 1:50 AM
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Sunday November 12, 2006
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Sup Guys, for how ridiculous things are and everything good and bad going on, all of it really doesnt matter. Wake up today at 2pm only to play more Gears of War again with the guys from back home. Talked a lot of shit of how good we were and well it wasnt talking shit cause we stood our ground and won EVERY ROUND EVERY MATCH!! Seriously, just hurt people and laughed bout it then told them we did dirty things to their mothers haha. Went to work on my paper for a long time. Wrote bout 3 of the 10 pages l needed to do and l should be ok. After so much work, l got a headache and went to sleep again from 7-9pm. Woke up and Mike came over with his 3 friends. They knew of my 'Walk it Out' video which has over 11,000 views on it haha. Mike made me show them some bboy moves and chilled. So met them and then Meg and Suzie came and then Cait and Andrea were on their way over but were running a lil late so we just met them at 58 noble, lambda chi's place. Good time, drank my drink and talked with people. Got to know Mike's friends and danced some as Mike started a dance off. Afterwards a bunch of us hit swim house at 331 main and that was a good time. Met some people who were in my classes that noticed me and met some friends of friends. Also met Emily's bf Chris and Emily's best friend from home Malissa(<-l spelled it right). They came back to have a few jelloshots and l made them my drink too. EVERYONE has been complimenting my drink, l feel so special. Ran around, joked with people and it was a typical party you would expect. Met more people who partied at my place b4 and they were asking how come we werent throwing anything. Ahh the money that could be made.... Heard my name called over and over again throughout the night. Seriously, it makes me feel really good. Was kinda getting more drunk than l wanted to be so stopped drinking. Walking back a bunch of girls called my name but swear l never met any of them. l felt really bad but l have no idea how they even know me. Most the time its for living at Chinaking, sometimes the walk it out vid and sometimes for dancing. But yea, they started walking with me saying they were going the same direction and just kept talking with me but eventually one girl had to wait up so said late to them. Saw Meg Andrea and Cait coming from 58 to 331(l think thats where they were going) and they jumped me right on spuds haha. Saw Amanda Jess and Emily in spuds and waved hey to them. Just hit back. Got back and lots of people were over. Drinking around the house, got a shower and AST girls are asking me to show them my dingaling but sorry girls, not that wasted. Been on playing Gears of War for this 24 hr tournament. Gon try to play till whenever l pass out. Prob around 4pm lm guessing is when its gonna hit me and lm gon sleep. Forgot to get food to stock up but its ok. With all the friends and things happening right now in my life, lm tottally confused. l think l keep looking at the big picture a lil too much and l just feel overwhelmed with all the things l gotta worry bout and try to fix. Trying my best not to be a dick and just have a good time but theres always small things that poke at me that l just dont know what to think. l know aiming for the PERFECT life is rough and its not gon just happen but l dont like knowing things could be better, ya know?! Seems like l commited myself to too many things where, you cant really say lm commited to anything cause l dont know if l put enough time into anything anymore. Yea most of the things l do, all of it besides school, is just for fun but l want to be better than above average at SOMETHING!! l want to get a rep for something l enjoy and it just seems with sports, dancing, gaming and everything else l got into at one point in my life, l get really into it but dont have enough time to fully commit to, lm just above average and its well its really annoying. Right now its still dancing that lm concentrating on but this game Gears of War and how well lv been doing lately, lm serious bout true competition for cash and prizes. Dom Hackney and posse are serious too and thats why lm back here playing. Am l loser?! l did leave a party early l was having fun at to play a video game. Honestly, l dont have any point to be there. l dunno, lm not depressed or anything trust me, just wondering whats the point to everything? l still got no idea whats goin on and lm doing stupid things to make life interesting. Guess l just need something new to go on. Gears of War is something fun l been killing mad time with but l need something crazy to happen. Kinda just bored with everything lately. Things happened and yea, l did the good thing to do tho lm upset. l wish l was an asshole. Ok lm gon just keep playing to who knows when and l dunno. lv had an AMAZING week seriously and this college makes me feel so popular anytime l go out haha. Just killed the entire team of 4 on a 4v4 match and my paper is going well. l guess l dont really have anything to complain bout. Just overall, being unsatisfied makes things in the long run better. Late.
Posted 11/12/2006 at 1:55 AM
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Saturday November 11, 2006
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Sup Guys, life is so ridiculous, fun and confusing. lm listening to the entire Paris Hilton album 'Paris' and stfu its good. Wake up and somehow l went to class. l was playing Gears of War with Dom to like 430am last night. Seriously, l really dont brag bout anything but, lm so good. Multiplayer online and stuff, if there are tournaments for money, l would really enter, confident that l would make money no joke. l never done it b4 cause l mean, lm always good but never this good. Seriously, even my friends admit to it, lm like headhoncho. Like the game is only 3 days old and l been playing A LOT so yea, l do understand that in 3 weeks or so, there will be a lot of good players but as of right now this moment, lm really on the top league. So played another 7 hrs today. ALL MAPS all weapons and every way it gets switched up round after round is memorized. Start working on a paper after the 7 hrs of playing and an hr later at 8pm, Dom calls 'Yo yo Zang we need you seriously!!' ughh fine and we owned. Owned so much, we won 15 rounds straight and people kept quitting on us cause they lost all the time. Everyone has been giving me so much credit for this game. l dunno why lm so good, playing right now and still had 11 kills, 2nd place had 6 kills. Just took out the entire team of 4 by myself twice, 2 with rockets and 2 with shotty both times. Seriously, rockets are overall amazing cept when they get too close and shotty is just mad good. Anyway, hit the party with the bboys along with MikeT coming along and great seeing all the dudes there. Girls were meh, some were cool but l was there to be with the guys l dance with and junk. Seriously after the last month of confusion with the last few girls, l dont even care. Talked and chilled and lost in beer pong cause l HAD A PARTNER. Seriously for life lm just gon play beer pong alone unless l have a really cute girl as my partner, then thats good time to make conversation but honestly, fuck partners. If you want it done right, do it yourself. Kinda like getting jerked off hahaha girls ussually suck at that. OppPSA?! So after that, hit 121 Lambda Chi to meet up with a bunch of friends and met up with a shitload plus more that l didnt know were going there. Great time, took A LOT of pics and had a great time. A LOT of friends were there and seriously, parties are fun. Not always in the mood but always a great time for sure. Got drunk, hit back and now more Gears of War with Domkey and Duronsunami!! LATE!! PS. K back from playing and got off and Dom and Duron called. Me: Yo man seriously l played this game way too much, l gotta sleep, wake and work on a paper man. Duron: YOUR A HOE YOUR SUCH A FUCKING HOE!! Ok l love you man bye-bye. Hahhahahahaha crazy black people are the best comedians.
Posted 11/11/2006 at 3:0 AM
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Friday November 10, 2006
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Sup Guys, lm kinda dazed with what lm doing with my life but everyday lately has just been really fun, lm not too worried. Wake up and decided to skip class. Sorry, just had to sleep. l was up till 4ish with Dom playing Gears of War online. God that game is addicting. l cant even play the campaign cause Dom is always on playing multi and its seriously so fun. lv gotten SO GOOD sorry to brag but yo, people are just so stupid and l think with the confidence from how well lv been doing, the confidence is making me play even better. lm so aggressive in the game. Sometimes overconfident as l'll rush and kill someone only to be ambushed by 3 more guys that person was with but still, l always get a kill. Taken out entire teams several times. Me and the shotty for real. Bow and explosive arrow lm aiight with and the rockets lm good with. lm still not good with the rifle and chainsawing people but l like my shotgun. Sniper rifle lm ok with. l just love running at people as they shoot the rifle or sniper at me and l just take cover, roadie run, dive and when l get up from the dive roll, lm mad close with my shotty, dont even aim, just estimate and its ussually a headshot. So yea, at the end of every match, of the 8 of us, lm always in 1st. Its nice being great at something, being really confident bout it and having fun. Its why l play so much haha. K so after video games all day, hit dance practice with the guys and just practiced my new set a few times and topped for a lil. Joked around with the guys and it was a nice lil practice. Didnt dance too hard tho as l wanted to have energy for tonight at Banana Joes. Hit back, eat some ramen and got a quick cold shower only cause it takes too long for the shower to warm up and the good shower was taken. Jump in Matt's car and rode up with Allison and Matt and a lot of people followed. Got drunk in the car with my mix drink and shared some with Matt Allison and Allison's friends from the cheerleading team that l met tonight. Bill Fez and JB also came with. Joked with the guys bout fat girls. Me: Honestly, lm really a really nice guy but seriously, lm drunk and l gotta say... fuck fat girls Guys: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Fez: Hahaha yea yea...... They eat too much. Later in the night.. Fez: lm gonna dance with a fat girl..... l mean l know she wont say no. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH!! Fat jokes are fun. <- mean?! Went in, danced with friends(Snap yo fingaz!! Do ya step!! You can do it all by yourself!!) and battled gangster children. God they all sucked but one but l was getting so pissed at one kid who was horrible and was all hard. His steps were a bboys toprock but he did SO LITTLE footwork it was retarded. Like a 6 step and then a c. grinder and l was like 'Are you really seriously and gonna act like that was good' like it was so ridiculously bad and he thought he was the shit, l was so pissed. Went out, made fun of them and did footwork that lasted no joke atleast 5x longer than his set. My set was cleaner, on point and l had variety. Sorry, seriously, anyone that does bboying as their secondary thing in dance, they suck. THEY ALWAYS SUCK!! The kid was obviously a hip hop dancer who plays around in bboying and wow, l was getting so pissed. HORRIBLE windmills 2, never completed the 2nd one both attempts and showed him up with my windmills and listened the cheers while l was still going. Great feeling. Another kid was acting all hard too and he fucked up his hollowback and stood up like he did something great. Yea the crowd doesnt know what a hollowback is but l do and l know you fucked up, dont act hard. God l was pissed. Another time the kid did a fucking stupid handstand and then fell over, that was it no joke. Seriously, battling idiots sometimes isnt even worth it. There was a lot of them too. Matt and Chris jumped in a few times too. In the end, l jumped in like 6 times within like 8 mins max and was out of breathe. Plus the drinking and the smoke from the club, my lungs couldnt take it. Danced around a lil but honestly, wasnt interested in dancing with strangers. Like, l just didnt want to waste my time, tho it woulda been fun, it just seems pointless. l wish more people came with our group tonight. Chelsea Chelsea and Kari were almost gonna come but didnt and another cheerleader that is friends with Ali had a slight chance of coming but didnt either.  .
l seriously just like dancing with friends and getting to spend time
with new friends better than strangers. l guess its growing up. Got back and all of my fraternity AXP and AST were here just drinking and it was like a mini party of just our 2 groups. Drank, joked around, stuff happened hahahahahaha jeez lm a dork but hey. Dom: That was cheap, but hey it worked. Werd, that was fun and random. But yea, me and Ziggy got food at turkey hill and these 2 goofy looking kids walked passed us. After they were a good distance away they said outloud 'ching chong, cmon bring it!!' and me and Ziggy were like 'Are you serious?!'. Why people start with strangers, l dont know. Having enemies suck, why would you want more, ontop of being random ones. 2nd if you're gonna start shit with someone, dont walk past them and stare at the floor then yell something when you're 3 steps from being out of sight. Losers seriously. Anyway, gon play with Dom for a good hr or so online. Late.
Posted 11/10/2006 at 3:25 AM
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Thursday November 9, 2006
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Sup Guys, life is always rushed. l remember me and my friend Colin were being pulled by 2 horses on a ride and we asked to go faster. The woman said it'll be much more fun but the ride will be much shorter. l was like 9 and l remember saying, its better than having things slow and boring. lv always kept that philosophy. So wake up and take my test. Did really well..... l hope. Hit my next classes and as always... slept. After spoke with my Jew His Prof whos also my advisor and got ready to set up classes. Told him lm gon do business and l gotta do a lot of shit. So hit back, got my chinaking and reg classes. As of now my scedule is like this. MWF - 11am African American History Prof Derr 12pm Topics in Moral Philosophy Prof Back 1pm Math for Business and Info Sci Prof Bobeck TH - 130pm Art History B Prof Norris 3pm Choreographic Process(Dance) Prof Campbell lm taking Back for Medieval Philosophy now and hes fun and lm doing good and Campbell for Choregraphic Process II and she LOVED me and l got an A. Plus, l love dance and l'll meet some girls who love dance too hehe. So yea, after all that, played Gears of War online with Dom Hackney and Quigley. We OWNED!! Hahaha the teamwork was just really good cause we felt mad confertable freely saying whatever and the teamwork, seriously. So that was really fun. Laughed a lot and at 1st my mic wasnt working so l could speak and they were making a lot of jokes haha assholes. Dom: Hahahhaa Zang is trying to talk, l bet hes screaming shit like :uses typical chinese accent: 'Mahn dow mah dow!! Nine won won!! Help surrrrr nine won won!!' hahaha you dick. l was laughing tho. Seriously, online video games are amazingly fun, l find that the source of my entertainment that l can do WHENEVER, but mostly as a good way to kill time during the day till night time and even at night, its something to do, DEF. So yea, after that, did some of my research for the philosophy paper bout Problems of Evil. Read some interesting concepts and its always good to learn different point of views. Got some more work done and played more Gears of War. Started playing the actual game and l get an invite from Hackney but declined. Then Dom calls my phone. 'ZANG WE NEED YOU!! JOIN!!!!!!!' Hahhaa so joined and we started winning. Its 4 v 4 right and its me Dom Hackney and Quigly against 4 other douches and yo, 2 games, l just ran out, dove along walls and got to the side and behind enemies and seriously flank the shit outta people with the shotty. Yo shotty is my gun in this game. Headshot and 2 good blasts is all. Twice in the same session, l killed the entire team myself. Flank one, move behind the next and flank him. The best part bout flanking is running up to the enemy and tho l can shoot him, l wait till lm point blank. Its so satisfying. Also when its me shotty vs another dude rifle, the dive roll is amazing as it gets mad distance and l'll dive right up to someone and then stand and point blank shoot them in the face haha its great. So yea hits 930 and got Jen and Andrea to Montana West and made my drink. Made a lot of it for us. Got there and it was empty so left. Hit back and got Andrea and Cait and drank in Kev's room along with a bunch of people. Just sat around and drank haha, very relaxing. Turns out everyone is from Bensalem haha but yea Kev's friends knew A LOT of my friends from home cause they all live around each other. Small world, always. Everyone pced tho now its past 2 and lm back online playing with Dom haha. Me and Dom are doing real good and rockets and shotty are my shit. Killed the same guy 3 times in a row and he screams 'WHAT THE FUCK OK THIS GAME IS REALLY STARTING TO PISS ME OFF NOW!!' and he quit haha, l love making people quit. Also had another one of these visions again. So playing the game and shit, l remembered l seen it all b4. In my dream and l specifically remember laughing too and seeing the ingame things EXACTLY. lv said many times b4 and l told A LOT of people. l see glimpses of the future in my dream. Ok but along with that, tho this dream was like 3 4 months ago or so, l remember a girl crying and other really bad news and ok, Lauren did cry that one night l got really mad at her and was pretty mean but it wasnt Lauren in my dream. NO JOKE if specifically a blonde girl cries sometime in the next day or so and l see everything just like my dream lm gonna freak out. l dont know how to explain it and l dont have proof cause l never write them down but l dunno. l think l wrote it down once in this xanga somewhere a while ago but l forgot when and where. From now on when l have realistic dreams, lm writting them down. But yea, back to Gears of War with Domkizzle. Late.
Posted 11/9/2006 at 2:31 AM
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Wednesday November 8, 2006
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Sup Guys, seriously lm having fun every night haha. Its a good life. Wake up and hit the RSCC meeting with Matt my vice for the Ku Breakers and we sat with the dance team girls Christine Jenna Danielle Lindsey and Kati. So it was a quick meeting and the girls laughed at me as always. Esp Jenna, she seriously just watches me with a smile waiting for me to say something stupid and will be the 1st to laugh. l love those girls but when lm around them, damn do l feel dumb. After hit class and sitting in class lm thinking 'Do l wanna drive home and back just for Gears of War?' which is a game EVERYONE has been waiting for since last nov when XBOX360 came out. So after class, hand in my paper in philosophy saying l had a family emergency and skipped and drove home. Called Brown and Dom and met up with them. Got a Peacoat from home, the one l love haha damn lm gon look like a nice clean guy. Hit Brown's and we hit the mall and meet up with Dom and got wendy's. Joked around and stuff and seriously, its like we just chilled yesterday. It will always be like that with them. Seriously l just laughed constantly with them. So we hit Abercrombie&Fitch and saw a bunch of old friends l worked with over the summer. Tyler Allison Cruz and Rach were all working and just stood around and talked bout whats been happening and haha, the news and the drama. Seriously Cruz was right. There should be a reality tv show called 'Retail' cause between Abercrombie and Hollister, there is so much staff drama hahahahaha. Its like a lil high school but insted of class, its selling clothes. So yea, GREAT seeing them and if anything, just for a visit was really nice. Hit back and go to Gamestop and get my game and drive back to KU. Get back and was bout to pass out. Had to skip out on ping-pong/pool with Matt and practice as l got back late and missed most the fraternity meeting so just chilled for a lil b4 tonight's event. Tonight was FUN!! Hahaha got some running around, some laughter. Drove around, running around with brothers. Creeping, ambushing, chasing. Setting up and searching. l got 1 capture and 3 assists. 1 assist with Riv at the start of the night and 2 assists with Zig as l was the driver. Car was a big advantage, tho its harder as dodging between alleys got tough, ground got covered fast. With Wade on the walkie and he was like the tip man, we got shit. Very fun and everyone had a great time. Everyone on both sides. Tho there is a big advantage on one side, its always fun. Next sememster, its one thing to look forward too. Said night to the bros and new members and got in. Gotta shower and study and play a lil Gears of War online, try that shit out. Late. NEW PICS!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              
Posted 11/8/2006 at 1:36 AM
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Tuesday November 7, 2006
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Sup Guys, something bout mondays have been really good. Seriously, monday is like the new saturday. So wake up and study a lil more for my US His test. Hit class and teacher says 'Who thought we had a test today' and l raised my hand only to realize l was the only one with my hand up and put it down fast b4 more saw cause l felt stupid being the only one. So the teacher says 'l bet you studied all night last night too' haha yea, so there goes not looking like an idiot. So if l woulda gone to class on fri l woulda known l didnt have a test today but weds now. After that, next 2 classes, feel bad but just slept. Naps are fun. After get home and got Chinaking. So ate food and just played Battlefield2142 tho l was laggy, l just played commander and used a lot of shit to my advantage. l would shoot a EMP strike ahead of a tank so the tank would run into it and then launch a oribital strike behind the tank so after the tank could move again, ontop of the blasts hitting it, naturally people believe when they are in the middle of a blast, to run backwards so really they just ran more into it and going backwards is slower so yea, got them everytime. <- l doubt anyone really cares. UAV and shot people in the back, thats always fun. Some of the housemates came in to play video games for a lil and played online.Started eating jelloshots at 3ish for fun. Just after ALLLLLLLLLL the work l did yesterday, l had to enjoy today and it was fun. Noel and Skip came by and at 4pm and Skip: Yo, drink a beer!! Rob: Haha now?! Well l am eating jelloshots.. But yo, its monday afternoon. Skip: What its your birthday?! Drink a beer!! Rob: Haha no no lm good. Skip: Here!! Take it!! Drink it!! Rob: Ahhh fine. Started drinking for a while with the guys and people just came by to drink. Andrea and Cait were planning on coming over later for jelloshots and drinking too. Meg and Suzie also said they wanted to come over and just drink. Later l started talking with my friend Jen and she wanted to drink tonight too along with her friend Andrea. Jeez, WHY DOES EVERYONE WANNA DRINK ON MONDAYS?! But then again, outta no where l started eating jelloshots at 3 so l cant talk. We get hungry so me Skip Noel and Carl we went to TC's for dinner. MmmmmmmMm good meal def and we couldnt finish our food. Just so much and yo0, fries and honey mustard... dammnnnnNn. After hit back and gave my keys to Zack as he picked up Jen Andrea Meg and Suzie for me and brought them over. Noel and Skip had another case and then Ziggy had a case and l had Old Crow, some Blue Wave and lots of jelloshots and a single bottle of Miller haha and we just all shared it and there was a lot of us just all around the house drinking. Lemme see if l can name everyone that was drinking here tonight. Me Ziggy Riv Peterson Noel Skip Meg Suzie Andrea Jen Kate Pam Jess Jace. Zack Dan and Jerrick were here too just chilling. But yea, me and Jen had chair races and that was fun. ld like to give a special thanx to who l am now going to be calling Wingman Dan. Good work Dan. Dan walked Andrea back and Jen just stayed and chilled. Drank and chilled and later on everyone got sleepy. Drove Meg Suzie and Jerrick back and just chilled with Jen till like 2. Talked bout junk and she'll prob come clubbing with me to Montana West on weds as she loves to get drunk and dance too!! Prob the best fun. So yea, chilled with her for a while and it got late. Hits 2 and gave her a ride back and hopefully weds works out. Drove back, got burritos and Ziggy is wasted and Kev is betting he cant do 3 handstand push ups haha. So hes falling everywhere in my room. Tomm Noel should be getting Call of Duty3 and Gears of War haha so he'll prob bring that over and that should be sweet. Then ping pong/pool with Matt then me and Matt got dance practice then l got a fraternity meeting followed by other stuff which will go late to the night. Fun times. Mondays have been really good lately. Theory still stands. Break a toy, tho you want the toy fixed rather than replaced, when you get a new toy, you're happy again. lm happy again. <- Is that shallow?! Meh.. Late.
Posted 11/7/2006 at 2:53 AM
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Monday November 6, 2006
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Sup Guys, l woke up this morning with sex on my mind. Kinda sux being single mornings like this. So yea, wake up at 2 and some of the housemates were going to see Saw 3 but l declined(<- haha l never say that but it kinda just fits) cause l didnt wanna get scared just waking up. So Riv and Carl were hungry so l got a shower and we hit KFC. I LOVE CHICKEN and yo, got myself a chicken pot pie. GOD l missed you!! l use to get them all the time at Boston Market when l was in jr high over the summers when my dad lived in Feasterville and let me and my friends just roam the town. Just talked bout junk, bout the pledges and all the memories we had when the 3 of us pledged in spring 05. Talked bout girls and l found myself being a hypocrite. Went back and did some school work for a while. Yea, just sat in my room and did school work all day thinking of it. Got a lot done but not as much as l hoped. Took breaks here and there watching music videos on youtube and talking online and a lil facebook and myspace time. Decided that earlier when talking with Riv and Carl bout the females that l had to change something so yea, did something, not gon be specific. But yea, its funny what you learn from yourself when you help others. l notice it a lot when l teach people dance moves, bboying or just a general sense of dancing, that l learn my mistakes when teaching them. l dunno, l guess it goes from doing the same thing over and over again, l get too over confident and skip the small details that really matter. Trying to fix that def. But yea, downloaded xfire again and started talking with Tay. Been a month since we talked and its pretty much the same. Whats gon happen, who knows, lm gon try not to even think of the future. Lately, thinking of a positive future has been really bad lately. So yea, been studying for my US His test tomm and working on my philosophy research paper. Still studying but lm on a lil break again haha. Posted 280 some pics of the last month and half of events. So much happens in lil time, its nuts. Lately, its been sad too. Just like, l dunno, its that theory l have. When things are good for me, seems like people wanna just pull me down so lm just having an ok time and its really annoying. Like seriously, tho lm not eating THAT well(chinaking everyday nigga!!), l really got my health and yea, talking with a lot of people, haha lm gon start working out again at the rec center. But ok, drifting, l got my health, l got a ridiculous amount of friends at home and at school and l just meet more and more people. Sat night, after the party with the Ku Breakers, l hit the swim house alone only to see a bunch of my friends and met a bunch of their friends who all ended up coming over to my place and made 4 good new friends. One who may pledge my fraternity and knows my friends from home. Small world. My grades arent too bad and lm trying to best l can tho lm just a dumbass at times. Not to brag but sometimes l just feel really popular too haha, just people knowing me for living in chinaking people point me out and introduce themselves and its awesome. l just meet people in the masses, l know this is gonna sound REALLY GAY but, since school has started, l watched my facebook friends bout another 200 haha, l know its not gon be a steady rate cause you always meet the most amount of people at the start of the yr but still, its nice. l got dancing which seriously, in the last week, lm a genius swear to god(if there is a god but lm so sick of the topic from my 2 philosophy classes, anyway) with footwork, things are just flowing real well and with toprocking(general dancing) lm just being more specific and sharper with my movements as its my fav part bout bboying. Like seriously everythings is amazing but then so much shit has been happening its like, because things are good for me, too good, that things are happening to fuck me up. Lemme tell you, l got REALLY PISSED several times this week. l hardly ever yell, EVER but sometimes l dunno, l just cant believe some of the things that happened in the last week. l re-thought bout several things and l feel bad bout doing some gutsy moves but like lv been reading through research in my paper, lm causing pain for some greater good, so overall its worth it. Just hope people dont hate me for my choices but then again, any choice l ever make, some people will love me and others will hate me for it. Also, l think lv gone partically crazy. It sux knowing that things that could happened that arent and lm all bout living life to the fullest and thats why l party 4 days a week, l didnt wanna go out sat but l did and ended up having a GREAT time, l cant stand knowing, things could be better than they are now but looks like l cant win everytime, or not this time anyway. Heard a song by DHT called 'l cant be your friend anymore'. Damn, everytime l say it, l always end up taking it back out of guilt. lm really a loser when it comes to being tough and enforcing it. So far this week, everytime lv gotten really mad at someone, 5 different people actually, l forgave them all within 5 hrs. And yo, if you knew what happened, like my friends, you would tell me l shouldnt have forgave them. lt sux lm soft. Well back to studying like a douche. Everythings great but it could be better. lm kinda glad in a way that l didnt hit the peak of things tho. l HATE people who are satisfied with what they have. They dont move up. Oh and l esp hate it when people tell me that lm out of my league and l should drop down to 2nd best whether its dancing, sports, girls. l really hate that a lot. l'll be in 1st place with everything in time, swear on my life. Ok something funny happened tho that made me feel better. Met this person on sat and l thought l saw them on my friends facebook so l added them and l just got to click a closer pic and its not really them haha. Oo0opPpPPSaaAa?! Meh, l'll just leave it and make myself look more popular haha lm a dork. Late.
Posted 11/6/2006 at 12:58 AM
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Sunday November 5, 2006
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Sup Guys, simple great day. So last night, there was some crazy events. Ended up picking Lauren back up and talked for a while and we went to bed. Talk bout being confused. So wake up and drive her home and go back to sleep. Started to play on the computer for a lil and then Ziggy wanted to get food, so we got Mamas, Italian Hoagie Wo0t Wo0t!! So go to Weis for some Weis up, knock off brand of 7up but yo, its only a $1 for a 3 liter haha and plus l need trash bags so ganked a SHITLOADA plastic bags from Weis. So get some super glue and fixed my door that drunk Peterson kicked over. So ate my food with the house plus the same girls that are always over, you know who you are. Work on school work for a while and planned my night. So slept a lil and hit my friend's place in the cliffs. It was with all the bboys of the Ku Breakers and it was a nice chilled party. Won 5 games of beer pong by myself and its always good to party with the posse l dance with. l feel bad l couldnt have partied with them more but living at Chinaking and always throwing, l really didnt have a choice but to be there and party with them when they came here and l could only talk to them for a lil cause l have so much going on. But yea, cops cracked down early so l had to pce. Justin, hope your knee heals fast. So hit the swim party to meet up with Meg and Susie and saw Amanda and Ash who are always there now since we met randomly the one night and randomly just walked in the swim party and met people. Its funny how such random events lead to where people go all the time now and who they chill with. Also Molly and Sarah were there and havent seen them in a bit!! So yea, just chilled, drank some of my mix of lemonade, weis up and Blue wave. Altogether l think each of the bottles l make is worth bout 40-60 cents. Its so good tho and everyone was trying it and really liked it. l'll be sure to bring an extra one for friends next time. So party there for a while and it was a good time. It wasnt flooded with people and just right and had a good time. After pced back, gave Meg a ride back and Ash and Amanda plus a few friends l got to meet from them all came over to my room and just had some jelloshots and l made them more of the mix drink haha. They love it, lm happy. They watched some of my dance comp videos and lapdance party videos and shit and we just chilled. One of them who l met, Kev, knows Jordan in my fraternity and hes thinking of pledging. Hits bout 2am and they pce back. Chelsea calls and she comes in with her sisters and one of her sisters stayed with me and chilled for a while and just talked bout junk. Later on Chelsea calls and l walked back her sis who was made cool and came back. Something happened on main st and l saw my friend and she seemed to have been crying and l dunno, l hope everythings ok. Thats bout my night. Very chilled. Tomm school work all day. Late.
Posted 11/5/2006 at 3:10 AM
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Saturday November 4, 2006
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Sup Guys, haha things are so ridiculous that l dont know if things are
great for me or if really lm just naive and things are actually pretty
bad. Talk bout being confused.  <- that would be me. Wake up realizing l missed class..... Fuck. It was review for the test on mon too for US His so ehh... l hope l do good. l got a B last time l should be ok. So yea, go back to sleep and wake up again a lil later to Ziggy asking me if l wanted to get lunch. Food? OF COURSE!! Food never betrayed me. Food <- my best friend. So get changed and me Ziggy and Riv hit Burger King. l was thinking of my new friend THE ANGUS but decided to go with the Fish burger(<-thats not what its called but l forgot the name). MMmmmMmmM MmM!! Plus fries, honey mustard and zesty sauce like OMGaaaaah ok lm done. So hit back and l played some Battlefield 2142 and the guys took turns on Call of Duty 2. Call of Duty 3 comes out on the 7th and they want me to get it haha. So later on, just ate more food and did a lot of school work. A lot of reading about 'The Problems of Evil' for both my philosophy classes. l got a 10 page research paper in Philosophy of Religion and lm gon cut it down to like 7 pages for the 5 page for Medieval Philosophy. The thing with religion and believing in God is that, its so interesting but its something l debated and talked bout so much with my friends in my life and now lm taking 2 classes on it and seriously WE'LL NEVER KNOW if theres a God or not, its like why are we talking about it so much?! Like, its a helpless arguement to argue bout something that we'll never truely know. l talked to Riv bout it too a lil while he was playing and seriously, lm suprised but hes agnostic too!! Seriously, l never met another agnostic haha and turns out my friend/housemate/fraternity bro feels the same way bout religion. Agnostic if you dont know means, since there isnt proof God exists and there isnt proof he doesnt exist, we're neutral, kinda like staying outta it and its whatever. lm more towards the atheist side but l mean, just cause theres no proof doesnt mean its not true. If l murdered someone and left no evidence behind, doesnt mean l didnt kill a person, just means l did it but they will never know. Well that was a kinda dark analogy haha. So yea, problems of evil real quick is pretty much, if God is all powerful and hes truely good then why is there evil in the world and theres A LOT of different arguments so the paper shouldnt be too hard. Gets late and the guys tapped the quarter keg we had left over. So you know, the kegs at parties are called half kegs and quarter kegs are just half of that so dont think we had only a lil lil bit of beer. It was half the size as a typical party keg. A full keg you can only get in like canada and like Virginia or some shit, beats me. So with that, started drinking. Even drank in the shower haha. Try it once, theres something oddly funny and relaxing bout it. l think its cause subconciously for me, alc means relax and shower time is chill time so it was like DOUBLE CHILL TIME with beer and a shower!! Ok so then out of the shower, ate some more food cause you know, food = happiness. Picked up Meg and Susie and then Manny and posse came to chill and we pregamed. Got Lauren and all of us plus Jerrick hit the swim team party. So b4 getting in l was asked who l knew, l said Chris cause l really do then he asked me his last name and l forgot but l said l remember he transfered here recently. l was asked from where and l remember pennstate main haha and we got in. God it was like a test to get into a forbidden temple seriously. Party there and it was a good time. Its not a secret place anymore tho which lm kinda upset bout. It was so sweet b4 but now it got packed and is like every other party. Still a good time cause of seeing my friends and stuff. Later tho, pced out and back to chinaking and continued the mini get together party there. Stuff happeened l rather not talk bout but yea, l got pretty upset. lm not really a mean guy tho, regardless of what happens. l kinda hate myself for it but its who l am. l really am the biggest sucker ever tho. God damn it. Well, off to do something potentially stupid but meh, who knows what will happen. Honestly, lm pretty sure lm a really stupid guy. Like not joking around, comparing myself to my friends, l always manage to have a tougher time with ridiculous situations. Oh welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll we'll see what happens. Nice guys finish last right?! Honestly, it feels like nice guys dont even finish but l'll try. Ha, l wish l could post what happened tonight but, lm honestly insecure bout the situation. l HATE being insecure bout diff areas cause its like, l dont have things down where lm confident bout it but yea, my friends are gonna haaaate me haha sorry guys. Nahh they'll just be like 'god damn it Zang' and maybe something good will come outta all my efforts. Outtie. Late.
Posted 11/4/2006 at 2:30 AM
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Friday November 3, 2006
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Sup Guys, already things are better. So last night after my angry entry, l just sat in my room while there was a party going on throughout my house and in my room and l just studied in my chair. It wasnt too bad and it was nice to talk with people inbetween study breaks but mostly for the last 2 hrs of the party, l just studied. Jerrick and Dan slept in my room and the environment of my room all trashed isnt that great for studying and Amanda invited me back to her place so l could study and chill so drove to UP and parked my car faaaaaaaaaaaar back but still got ticketed($15) and studied at her place, talked and ate some of her chips and passed out. Wake up and got ready and said bye and thank you to Amanda and hit back to my place. Gave Jerrick a ride to class and took my test. l did fairly well. Not great but l think about a 75% is a good guess. The tests are just mad hard. So yea, after the test, got my chinaking and just chilled. Oh yea, frebreezed the SHIT outta my room. Its all clean. Me Brian and Ziggy just ate chinaking and watched Shanghi Noon haha still a great movie. Esp when Jackie Chan gets high and later when he gets drunk and jumps on his horse backwards and his commenting and the delivery was damned amazing. Played some video games and yo, l know l play a lot and tho not a lot recently, its all sinking in and now in Battlefield 2142 lm going like 15:4, 28:9 and such ratios and yo, cant lie but lm good. Now its just the confidence in my actions b4 along with more experience, lm just setting up people and faster on the trigger and haha, its just fun. Afterwards play pool with Matt, ended in a tie of each of us winning 3 games each. Good game Matt you bastard. We hit practice and that was enjoyable. l kinda wanna just practice tomm in the afternoon if any of the guys are down. l dunno, lately my mind has just been on a roll. Not sure whats gotten into me but not only do l got more energy to keep going after crashing but lm just making up really good stuff and lm really happy and motivated to practice more. Earlier this yr, l was just fustrated that l would exhaust and not come up with anything and it was discouraging but yea, lm feeling better bout it. After rush a shower and go to a lil fraternity event. Got burritos as always and brought some chips and just sat and watched. Good times and ahhhh all the time l think 'haha l remember that'. Memories. Met up with a big group of girls plus a guy and ran around and eventually ended up at lacross by camillos. The old AXP house 3 yrs back. Its funny how things change. AXP had that place 3 yrs ago, Lettermen's 2 yrs ago, 56 Noble last yr and this yr its Chinaking. Whats funny is all 4 of those places have always been party places whoever lives there. So yea, party was pretty good and some of my friends on the dance team were there. It was def more of an upperclassmen party as l dont think there were many freshmen or sophmores. So chill, drink and talk with people for the 1st half of the party. Later on we all go upstairs and start dancing. Got to chill with Manny too who wants to learn to bboy so yea, he started dancing with the girls too. Just grinded and the girls acting all dirty on the stripper pole they had. Danced with Susie Danielle Meg Krista and Nicole and yo.... Good times indeed. It was also nice just enjoying myself at someone elses place rather than worrying. Like seriously, yea its kinda stressful finding a party and hoping its good and then theres paying(tho l just brought my own mixed drinks with me tonight) and all that junk. Seriously tho, DRINKING AND DANCING is so simple but seriously so much fun. l dunno, l just hope theres a good party tomm that theres good music and a good environment where people are dancing and yea, l'll be dancing out there. We all hit mamas afterwards and socialized with friends and got food and then the girls came back to chill with me at chinaking for a lil then drove them back. Great night def. Looking forward to tomm. Oh yea, we're not throwing for a while cause LBC is after us to do a big bust like other fraternities last yr. Yea we have been too loose with who comes in. We really did just let EVERYONE in and everyone always came to our place cause they like our place or dont know where else to go and we seriously got greedy cause yea, selling cups, selling jelloshots, selling several diff shots, selling mix drinks. Yea we wanted money and we made it but yea, apparently our house and another house are under close watch. Its ok, lm cool to just chill for a lil. l mean, l like my room clean. Its all good and now l can meet new people at other places. So where will my income come from? Yoooooooo Mom whats up?! Late.
Posted 11/3/2006 at 2:10 AM
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Thursday November 2, 2006
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Sup Guys, its one of those really bad days that just happens. Bad luck plus a lot of ignorant people caused me a lot of problems today. Wake up not hung over. Good thing l threw up over my roof last night. After dropping off Lauren and Drew got burritos, 2 and gave one to Zig. Ziggy passed out on my floor cause when l went to sleep he was drunk playing Halo 2 in my room hahaha. Damn azns and their video games. Hit classes and everything was fine. lm glad l got friends in all my classes on MWF or l really would go a lot less. Get gas, get jello and propel water, get my chinaking and start studying for my anthro test tomm. l got a 61% on the 1st one so l been trying to do really good. Studied pretty much all day but there was A LOT of fucking interuptions. People stole our dixie cups we were using to make jelloshots so instead of studying, l had to make a damn run to get cups and it sucked. Then more shit just constantly stopped me from studying today. It was just bad luck. So had an event for a lil then started the party. Party time, well it was a really bad night. Had 3 vommit incidences in my room so l had to clean that up myself while theres a lot of people just going nuts in my room. Had to watch over my friend Jerrick who got really drunk and he'll be ok, haha oh man, just the ridiculouslyness. Other things happened l rather not talk bout but yea, l try to make time for people and l really cant at my own party sometimes. Shit happens and l gotta be sober and in control. All while lm trying to study for my test. l still didnt study it too well, after writing lm gon go back to party for a lil and then study. Gon be a long night. So yea, just it seems like l been making a lot of bad choices and its like a guessing game that l been doing horrible at. So eventually try to chill with people and yea, l got really pissed. l really just feel used sometimes and then l remember a conversation earlier of them thinking lm just trying to use them? As of this yr, l just straight up been used by this person and l dunno. A few other small things that just piss me off, l didnt act on it only because it truely isnt any of my business but if l was a jerk, ld like to fuck some things up. Hang outta the laundry room window to make a call for relief but honestly, l think l just confused myself and other people a lil more. Things are just so bad l think subconciously lm trying to istigate more problems and l dunno what lm thinking. l dont want to end the night by starting a fight with a jerk cause lm so pissed as it is but yea, lm really on edge. So yea, gon go back and try to enjoy the night somewhat. l went back out once and l really just dont want to be here. Its weird.. l dont want to party. l rather just be alone, watch some tv and study and do good on this test tomm. lt really just seems that the harder l try to do well in everything, everyone wants to use me to their own advantage, friends and people who hate me. With friends, l dont mean disrespect but its just like, people presume l'll help them out too much and most the time l do but really, it cuts into my own time that l dont even have. So yea, gon try to enjoy myself, talk with some bros and chill. Talked with Bobby for a lil bit bout one of my situations tho and theres some true points. l cant really be completly mad but l dont like disrespect. The vommit incidences suck but its like whatever, it happens. ld really like to just post it but its ok. l just know who l prob shouldnt talk to anymore. Like seriously, some people are just morons, why the fuck would you do that in my house that l obviously walk around. To add on, l made $10 dollars tonight but l put in $16 so yea, we lost money tonight. Bad nights happen. Tomm will hopefully be better. lf it isnt, l dont even know what to do. Just a lot of things hit tonight at the same time. Late.
Posted 11/2/2006 at 12:47 AM
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Wednesday November 1, 2006
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Sup guys lm never drunkandnot gon edit this t yea, lm stoooooooooopid. so, go to class n kick ass in my debate and that was that. Next class, slept. So after, stressed all day for the night. l needed tonight ot be perfect. So liquor stores close at 7 on tues? WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff pissed and fucked me but lucky me that l got lucky thanx to fraternity bros getting liquor ahead of time. So mixed my 'weis up' 7 up and lemonade with barcardi limon which l couldnt pronounce all night and made mad mix drinks. l think lm sobering up as l type no joke cause l really hate bad grammer. But yea, so hit practice and add more on my footwork. Seriously its such a long process and lm jealous of my friends who figure out smooth shit to do so fast, lm no genius when it comes to dancing and its honestly, really annoying when comparing myself to my friends back home. Honestly as of right now, l wish l had more time for dancing and not so much time for the rest of the bullshit l do with my life cause for real, l make something outta myself when l dance but l dunno, l do stall myself with a lot of shit and l dunno, l'll have to figure out my shit soon b4 l waste away. So yea, hit my fraternity meeting and that was quicker than normal. After, got meg and hit my date social. Crazy time and got a lil too drunk as Noel gave me too many shots of stuff and mix drinks and shit, l feel bad l told meg l wouldnt get too drunk but l did. She was a fun date and held her ground on beer pong. She came as a kitten again and l washed and wore our bathroom mats and this crazy ass hat my friend left as a hat and l tried to be a dog but peopel ekpt saying bear nad omggggggggggggggggggggggggggg l a dog. So yea, crazy night adn tooooooooo many liquor. Gon try to sleep. Kinda upset. Ok more news, so Meg stokes calls and says shes in the fairgrounds by herself and then talk to lauren and shes drunk and so drive lauren and drew back to their dorm and then call meg to see if shes ok, well shes with Ryan Macy OoOoo)0oo0ooOoooO good luck you two, l heard whats up. So yea, ummmmm life is pretyty damn retarded and its ridiculous and hlawwoened is a retarded night and got turkey hill burittos and lm laughing so hard because my night has been so fucking insane l dont know if l should be upset or happy and l understand why lm doing the stupid things lm doing but hoenstly at this point, l dont care. l honeslty am all bout having as much fun as possible tho lm trying not to screw people over, it happens and l have. Fun. Its alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll l love for. Weellllllllllll lm expecting something else stoopid to occur. lm drunk enough to do whatever at this pt. Too much yager. FUCJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJKKKKKKKKKKKKK!! late. Late.
Posted 11/1/2006 at 1:31 AM
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